Sill Missing You

Well dad, today is your day, today is Father's Day. And I still miss you like crazy. The pain of you being gone hasn't gotten any easier, at times it seems so hard and unbearable. I miss seeing you - I miss your laughter, I miss watching you with the grandkids, I miss you teaching the boys your secret handshake and taking them down to their special hideout that you made for them. I miss the way you spoiled the girls - you always had a soft heart for them. I miss so much of you - every single day - simple things, or simple memories will make me cry and make my heart ache to see you just one more time.

We are living our lives and trying to move on but we all feel a void, an emptiness of you not being there. It, well, it sucks! Today would have been the day you went golfing with the boys while us girls would once again complain "How come we weren't invited, are we not good enough to play with" :) But then we would all meet for dinner at mom's and just laugh and have a great time as a family. We would all laugh as the grandchildren would give you their home made gifts and you made each one of them feel like their gift was the best one that you had ever recevied.

Today, I am sure the boys will be out golfing thinking of you and all of the memories they have had with you out on the course, And as for me, I will go over to mom's where I feel your presence, where I feel a bit closer to you and I will remember you today with a smile.

I will thank God today that he allowed you to be my father - even though you are no longer phsycially with us, you are with us in our hearts and our love and our actions. Thank you dad - for being the best father, thank you dad for being you!

Happy Father's Day..........

I miss and love you dad ~ so much