Believing

so this is the year - this is the year that Steve and I think that Brayden is going to figure it out. Is he going to ask the question or do we just tell him? We don't want him to be made fun of in school and go through the ridicule of still "believing" - he already has huge social anxiety and this would just hurt him more.

But I don't want him to stop "believing". In stopping that little bit of excitment and magic is gone come Christmas morning - I know as kids when we all stopped believing it was still a lot of fun and laughs and we never lost that but the magic was gone....

Why can't they stop growing up? :(

So we wait and ask for opinions - do we tell him or do we wait for him to ask us?

Miss and love you dad ~ so much.

Much love and happiness to all,

3:00am

oh 3:00am - how I am starting to despise you. It seems like you are the magic hour that I wake up every night, no matter what time I go to bed. Whether it is to go to the restroom or whether it is just because you hate me so. I get up move out of my bed because by this time Logan is in there as well as Steve and I don't want to wake them with my tossing and turning of trying to get back to sleep after you wake me so rudely.

I will finally fall asleep about an hour later for a whole hour because 5:00am comes early in our house :)......

I have been thinking about Dad a lot lately, maybe because of the holidays, maybe because yesterday was mom and dad's wedding anniversary, maybe I am just missing him more than normal, maybe he is trying to talk to me but I know this isn't the reason that 3:00 am every night for at least the past month or so I have been waking up and no I am not pregnant!

I guess this is why they invented caffeine LOL

I hope everyone is doing well and survived Thanksgiving. It was weird this year only staying at mom's and not going to Steve's families. We normally have to hit both houses which is fun and exhausting at the same time, but Steve's mom had to work and she will probably have to work Christmas too - Boo.... but we will celebrate another day. Steve and I laugh because this would have solved our problem for the past 20 years of whose house we go to first, who we eating dinner with etc...

It is hard to believe Christmas is even here - just seems like yesterday we were celebrating 4th of July and now it is time for the cold and snow but it is also my favorite time of the year. I love the decorations, the baking of cookies, the christmas tree with way too many ornaments, the lights outside, the warmth and friendliness that you feel from people well most people!

It is a great time of the year, but let's also remember the reason we are celebrating it :)

Happy Wednesday!

Miss and love you dad ~ so much.

Much love and happiness to all

The Knots Prayer

Dear God,Please untie the knots in my mind,
my heart and my life.

Remove the have nots,
the can nots, and the do nots
that I have in my mind.

Erase the will nots,
may nots,
might nots that may find
a home in my heart.

Release me from the could nots,
would nots and
should nots that obstruct my life.

And most of all,
Dear God,
I ask that you remove from my mind,
my heart and my life all of the “am nots”
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought that
I am not good enough.

Amen

(Author unknown)

For those of us having a hard time to get back into the swing of things this Monday morning after a holiday - Blah

Thankful Heart

So this is the week we give thanks, give thanks for what is on lives, thanks to a higher being, thanks for whatever you may be thankful. So I thought I would take the time and write a few things I am thankful for - in no particular order:

- I am thankful for an ever-forgiving God. I haven't been the perfect being by any means and knowing that he has given me forgiveness - it just, it is more than words can describe

- I am thankful for having a strong mom - I know loosing dad has just been as hard on her as it has been on all of us. She is living her life to the fullest, with the grandkids and her friends and family. I am thankful that she is always there for us and that she takes the time with each grandchild to make them each feel special in their own way

- I am thankful for Steve and the boys - I don't know where I would be without you guys. Yes, it is a house full of farts and burps, which for some reason, all three of you find hysterical, but I wouldn't want to have it any other way - you guys are my life, and my love for you is beyond this world.

- I am thankful for my brothers and sisters and their spouses - we have so much fun together. I know if I am ever down or feeling blah, one of you will make me relax and enjoy life. You guys are the best.

- I am thankful for our Sunday dinners - I know it started a long time ago and I am grateful each and every week that we continue this tradition. Yes, there are times where it is just so crazy and loud, especially in the winter time when we are all there - but I wouldn't change it for the world.

- I am thankful for having a beautiful home and being able to put food on the table

- I am thankful for my job - even though there are days where I just despise it, and maybe in the near future there will be a career change, but I know I am blessed to even have one, so for that I am eternally grateful.

- I am grateful for all of my friends. My friends from my very first job, to the friends at this job, to my high school friends who I have rekindled a friendship with, to my dearest and oldest friends from high school - we have all been through a lot but through it all we are still standing and still friends - for that I am thankful.

- I am thankful for my health and just for being happy and being blessed.

- I am grateful for this blog. It started out as a way of communicating with the families about dad and his illness and it has become more than that for me. It is therapy in so many ways. And though many not read it, just being able to "write" is so enjoyable for me.


Every day is Thanksgiving, for every day we should be thankful for what we have in our lives, and i know with our busy lives sometimes it is hard to do that.

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving - be blessed with the company and love of family and friends, be blessed with a great big turkey dinner and a warm house. And if you are one of the CRAZY people who go shopping the next day or even that night - be safe and may I just say " Are you Crazy" :)

Happy Thanksgiving!

Miss and love you dad ~ so much!!!

Much love and happiness to all!

D.I.S.N.E.Y - Happiest Place on Earth

so we did it, once again we made the trip to DISNEY. I know, I know what you are thinking, there are other places in the world. Believe me, I know. Try convincing Steve, Brayden and Logan that - they are obsessed with DISNEY. Don't get me wrong, I always have a great time when we go and it is exhausting but I always say there are other places I'd like to see. Maybe one of these days, I'll get to go somewhere besides Florida.

So this time we decided to drive down - for various reasons: costs, wanting to try it, and wanted to be able to take things that we normally are not able to take on planes. We were trying to go as cheap as possible, and we did pretty good. We were down there from Thursday to Saturday - a long time I know, but if you are going to go, might as well go! Two of us were sick, Logan and I. I think I just had some type of food poison, but whatever it was, I have NEVER been that sick in my life. I passed out in the bathroom of the resort, big fat lip, bumped my head and a bruise the size of a football field on my thigh. Needless to say I didn't get out of bed for two days - which was okay, because the boys wanted to go swimming anyway.

After that little episode we were good to go, I never really felt 100% until Friday, but you are in Disney, there is no time to be sick, especially when you travel with Steve. We have an agenda that we MUST follow :)... If you don't like getting up at the crack of dawn and staying until it closes, then you would not like traveling with Steve to Disney LOL.

Here are some pictures from our trip - so much FUN, as always.

I hope everyone is doing well!!

 

 

 

Miss and love you dad ~ so much.

 

Much love and happiness to all!