Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The call...

A horrible call I received this morning. Mom called and she was upset, dad was in extreme pain and she had called the doctor. When I got to mom and dad's he was doubled over in so much pain and he was crying - I have never in my life seen him cry like this - it took me biting my tongue not to cry. I called the doctor again and of course got an operator but I told them it was an emergency that he had taken four of his pain medicine in three hours and nothing was helping him.

They wanted us to go to the VA Hospital - so we go over there and they sent us to the emergency room - and mind you during this whole time dad is still in extreme pain. The admissions clerk at the emergency room told us the nurse was at lunch and there were five people in front of us and I told him "Are you freaking kidding me" - Don't you think if it is an emergency you should get in right away- I was so aggravated - so we didn't get back to see anyone for an hour, I kept trying to be pushy and I even told the admissions clerk that he didn't understand how hard it was to see someone you love in so much pain and not be able to do anything about it.

So we get through the nurse and then we see another nurse who asked the same questions the first nurse did and finally after about two hours he started to get some pain medicine. He was dehyrdrated so they started him on fluids, and throughout the day he was in so much pain. They did take a scan of his chest and his stomach. His extreme pain is in the stomach area and he was sensitive to touch it - but the doctor on call said they weren't sure why he was in so much pain, that they will have to admit him.

So there he is in the VA Hospital not knowing what is going, not knowing why he is having all of this pain, he was suppose to have a scan first thing tomorrow morning but they pushed that off because they said it may be the tumor repositioning itself. All I know is he is in ALOT of pain and it took us almost 7hours to get a room and for him to get some type of relief. I hear all emergency rooms are like this, if that is the case, I hope no one has a dire emergency - Unbelievable.

So we will back at the hospital tomorrow hopefully to get answers and all I want is for him to get relief for the pain, I know it is tearing us apart those who see him, that he is in that much pain and there is nothing we can do - nothing!

I'll keep everyone updated as soon as I know anything.

Much love to all,

Monday, March 30, 2009

I hope no one is offended....

But I really, really needed a laugh today and I found this joke. And I can just picture my mom saying this at the dinner table, as I am sure anyone who knows her can too.

Wife has the last say...
A husband and his wife who have been married 20 years were doing some yard work. The man was working hard cleaning the BBQ grill while his wife was bending over, weeding flowers from the flower bed. So the man says to his wife "Your rear end is almost as wide as this grill" She ignores the remark. A little later, the husband takes his measuring tape and measures the grill, then he goes over to his wife while she is bending over, measures her rear end and gasps, "Geez, it really IS as wide as the grill!" She ignores this remark as well. Later that night while in bed, her husband starts to feel frisky. The wife calmly responds, "If you think I'm gonna fire up the grill for one little wiener, you are sadly mistaken."


Not too much to report tonight, just wanted to share that joke and I know none of the Timmerdings will be offended - us kids had to get it from somewhere. I haven't talked to dad today, I am giving him a break of my pestering. I know he reads this so he knows he needs to EAT and DRINK plenty of fluids....

I'll get an update on Uncle Wally tonight or tomorrow night. I know Tonya and Karen did make it back home safely -

Much love to all,

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Just got back from Sunday dinner - dad is doing okay. He started finally feeling a little bit better yesterday and he was able to make it to church. He said he thought because the blood thinner medicine had seemed to be helping him he would try a cheese coney - he paid for it later of course:)

He said today that he doesn't have any desire to eat which isn't good - he needs to pack on the pounds. I think with the full chemo dosage we are getting to see what it is really going to be like. When he was only getting 1/4 of the dosage his sound effects weren't too bad but now they are. We have this week off so we will see how he does. I know on Sunday evenings he is exhausted, I know he loves all of us over but especially when it rains and we are all stuck inside it can get pretty crazy - especially with the majority being boys. So I am sure by the time we leave he is grateful.

It is amazing how some people have faith and others don't - I guess you just always assume everyone has some type of faith, but I can understand why people don't. I know there are days and sometimes it seems a lot lately, but there are many moments when I don't have faith, and I just blame him for everything that is going on right now in our lives and in my life. I try to be good and do what is right for him to reward and enrich my life and yet it seems like it doesn't happen and others they just have that lucky streak for them at all times and they may not even have faith. So is it really faith and following God that brings us our just rewards - he is the one in charge of our life right? Or is just simple luck and good karma that really bring us our just rewards.

I am glad the "Seniors" had a great time on their trip, but as dad said to one of his friends at church on Saturday evening - "Well I am sure they didn't have that much fun because I wasn't there" :)..... And he wonders where Sean gets the idea that he is the "Party in the Can".....

I hope everyone has a great week and the weather turns around.

Much love to all,

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The Notebook....

Has anyone seen the movie "The Notebook" - it is one of my favorite movies. Yes it is a chick flick - it is about a woman who has to choose between two men - one she loves with her heart and one she loves but it's more because she knows he will take care of her. So she chooses the one with her heart - and they live a very happy and fulfilled life until she gets Alzheimer's and he is there every step of the way, he doesn't leave her side for one minute and he always has hope that one day she will remember him. He is there that day that she does, and then when she passes away he has such a broken heart because he has lost his soulmate that he passes away too.

It is just an amazing testimony to how much one person can love another person. Do you have that in your life - do you have such a deep love that your heart would be completely broken and you would be completely lost without that person that you would just rather not go on living. Can you say today that you are married to your soulmate?

Is it best to choose with your conscious with what you know is the right thing to do, or do you follow your heart?

Just questions in life again.

Dad isn't doing well - he has been very sick since Thursday night so I guess the chemo is working since he got a full dose. But he has been sleeping alot and just feeling blah, blah, blah. I do know that Deacon from Knights of Columbus came up yesterday to see him. So that was good. I am not sure if he will be in church tonight or not. And he wasn't able to make it on the "Senior Trip" because he felt so bad. :(

Hopefully he had a good day today. But the weather makes it kind of nice just to lay in bed and do nothing all day!

Much love to all,

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Results...

His cancer is stable -it isn't growing which is a good thing but it isn't shrinking either, just the same. The doctor changed his schedule again. Dad will be having chemo every other week and he will be getting the full dosage. The weeks that he has had chemo it wasn't at 100% so we are doing every other week. He will start on a chemo pill the next time we go - I forget the name but is a kissing cousin to the drug Patrick Swayze is taken - but it will coincide with the chemo. The doctor said it won't prolong his life but it may give him an extra couple of weeks. We will take what we can get - you know!

He also had been put on blood thinner because he has a small blood clot in his stomach area which is causing his stomach problems. And he is on another medicine to help with his white blood counts in between chemo to get them back up. So more medicine I know he is so excited.

Unfortunately he lost weight so I am on him to eat more, but he wasn't eating that much because of it hurting so hopefully this blood thinner will help everything out.

So here we are just stable! I guess that is good news but I was hoping to hear oh my gosh, it is a miracle it shrank and you are fine! - Fat chance huh.....

All dad's brothers and sisters are on their yearly trip this weekend - they call it the "Seniors Trip" so hopefully he feels well enough that he will make it at least for a day. They only go a couple of hours away and just for the weekend - so maybe he will be able to make it.

Tonya and Karen made it to Florida - I'll get an update on Uncle Wally later.

Much love to all,

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Tomorrow is the day....

Tomorrow is the day we see the doctor and get his scan results. We are going in optimistic and hopeful which can be a bad thing if we are let down -

Dad has said he hasn't been feeling too well, a lot of stomach pain, mom said maybe it is the cancer inside beating out the tumor - mom: always trying to be funny :)

Here is a little poem that Aunt Carol had put in the comment section but I thought I'd share here because I am not sure who all reads the comments - but it is pretty fitting for what our families are going through:

If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Ever moment, Thank God.

I will post tomorrow as soon as I can - Tonya and Karen are leaving today or tomorrow to go see Uncle Wally - here is to a good and safe trip for both of them. I'll update on both dad and Uncle Wally as soon as I hear news. Until then, thank you to everyone for all of your support and prayers and tomorrow we will find out if that little nasty tumor has shrunk at all.

Much love to all,

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Grandpa and Kali











Here are pictures of dad and Kali that were taken when she first came home. I'll try to get some more updated ones from Jeremy or take some this weekend.

I had this poem written in my journal that I have always loved:

Walk a little slower, Grandpa,”said the child so small.
“I’m following in your footsteps and I don’t want to fall.
Sometimes your steps are very fast,sometimes they’re hard to see.
So walk a little slower, Grandpa, for you are leading me.
Someday when I’m all grown up,you’re what I want to be.

Then I will have a little child Who’ll want to follow me.
And I would want to lead just right,and know that I was true.

So walk a little slower, Grandpa, for I must follow you.”

**********

On a side note: Sean and Lisa are selling their house - it used to be Aunt Joy's house in Latonia, KY - They want to try to keep it in the family because it is such a beautiful house and has such wonderful memories. If anyone knows anyone in the family or extended family that is in the market to buy a house please email me and I can give you Sean's phone number.


Much love to all,

Monday, March 23, 2009

New Addition... Welcome Ethan

I didn't make it to church tonight because Steve's sister Susan had her baby. She had a boy and named him Ethan (which we already knew) he was 8lbs 9ozs and everyone is doing well. Tis the season for babies, next up is Sean and Lisa due in July. Busy, busy year for babies - I guess everyone was bored in the fall/winter :)
Another beautiful day but it is almost too good to be true to count winter out yet, especially living in KY - you never know when it is going to change.

I have a question that has been burning on my mind and it is kind of a silly one and I am sure many have wondered this before. Is it better to have love and lost than not to have loved at all? What if that one true love of your life slips away?
Just one of life's questions that I am sure many have different opinions on -
I didn't make my nightly call to mom and dad - I'd thought I wouldn't bother them every night but I am sure if there was a problem mom would of called - right mom??? But I am sure he is fine, just a little tired I imagine. Hopefully he got out and enjoyed the weather.
Much love to all,

Trip

Dad and his brothers have planned a trip on April 19th to go see Uncle Wally - I think that it will be a good trip and he will be excited to see all of his brothers. I believe they are only staying a few days - but it will be good.

Dad had a decent weekend, I know him and mom took a walk yesterday and when I got there he was feeling pretty good but he said he just took his medicine. By the time we left he wasn't feeling too good so I think it was time for more medicine and to lay down. It was such a beautiful day out and I think it helps dad when the weather is good because how can one be so down when the weather is so beautiful you know.

This is our week to see the doctor and get the results of the scan - I think we are all kind of nervous about it because we will actually know if the chemo is working or not - so think positive thoughts all week!

Much love to all,

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Dad has been feeling okay the last couple of days - kind of yucky in the sense he has lack of energy and just blah. I wonder if it has anything to do with blood counts being low. A couple of his brothers and sisters came up yesterday and visited with him. We then convinced him to go to the fish fry at the Knights of Columbus in Ludlow where he is a member. He use to fry fish there all of the time until he got sick. He actually got them to start using one of his recipes - "the beer battered fish" and it is so good.

But he went down there and I am sure he had some doubts and worries about going there because he doesn't want anyone's pity and look at him all sad and sorrowful, but the guys were great and I could tell he is greatly missed down there - But it was nice because all five of us kids were able to meet down there along with mom and dad - we didn't stay too long, because I am sure the fried smell and the smoke smell got to dad, because it always does me, but we were glad and his friends were glad he made it down there.

He said in church tonight he had an okay day and he is just in good spirits - which is amazing but like he said what can you do, you know. I hope everyone is enjoying this weather hopefully we won't see cold or snow anymore and it is here to stay.

I will post tomorrow after our Sunday dinner - wonder what is on the menu this week :)

Much love to all,

Friday, March 20, 2009

Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy's Visit...

Dear Michelle and all

We had a beautiful visit with Wally and Saint Bernie ( she earned her sainthood caring for Wally). Just kidding !

We spent most of day on Tuesday and Wednesday with Wally and Bernie. On Tuesday we went out to dinner with Bernie while the girls were there with Wally. Wally really missed the girls when they went out in the afternoon while we were there. It was funny because he kept asking when they were coming home. I think he missed their energy and fun.

We went to oncologist with Wally and Bernie at Wally's request. We were glad we went.The oncologist is a very compassionate and kind man. The nurse brought extra chairs in the room for us and seemed to be glad we were there. How about that.I found out that the drug Wally is taking is the only approved drug for liver cancer. Not a curative drug but a drug that stops the progression of the tumor by cutting off the blood supply to the tumor. The oncologist has seen some good results from this drug even in the case of his own father.

Wally had a good report and doesn't have to go back to oncologist for a month, as long as no problems. This report by his doctor seemed to really lift his spirits.

On Thursday we had a short goodby visit with Wally and Bernie and were on our way to the airport. We made it to the airport without mishap. Well we did have one small one. As an addendum to the welding shop story: Aunt Joy in her very quiet way said to me " Are you sure that's the right car that pulled into the welding shop?" And I replied "Oh sure That's the right car." Oh well can't always be right.

Love to all

Aunt Rita

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Today

No chemo today - bummer. His blood counts were too low. He said while we were sitting waiting for the blood results that he probably wouldn't get chemo because he was feeling too good and he was right. I know he was bummed but it is normal for almost anyone to only handle two weeks of chemo and then take a week off. So we see the doctor next week for the results of his scan and he will also have chemo as long as his counts are up.

He said he felt good yesterday - he even went fishing. Well he went out with a friend intending to fish but they just sat in lawn chairs and enjoyed the weather and just talked - he said it was really nice. But I am glad he was able to do it. He was actually in a pretty good mood today and I asked him why he was in such a good mood and he said "Well why be a grump" And you know he is right, you have to deal with the cards you are dealt and you have to make the best of it, so why go through life all grumpy and hating life and it makes me so happy and so proud that he is taking that approach to this whole situation. It would make it hard if he was laying around grumpy all of the time and just feeling sorry for himself. It is totally understandable if he does, but we are all going to go sometime as he says and we just have to live each day to its fullest because you never know if tomorrow will come.

So don't be a grump - live your life to the fullest and take each moment and make it a memory.

Much love to all,

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Yucky

Just talked to mom, she said dad hasn't been feeling too well the last two days, not so much pain, just a yuckiness. They didn't make it to church last night because he wasn't feeling too well. There is no rhyme or reason anymore of when he feels good and when he doesn't - it just when he wakes up if its' a good day it will be a good day but the yuckiness can hit all of a sudden - so no rhyme or reason.

I hope everyone has a chance to watch the cancer video that I posted earlier because I have a few choice words I would like to say to that cancer and what it is doing to our family - it is quite the bastard isn't it.

Sorry - it just makes me angry some days and today is an angry day. It was such a beautiful day and dad loves these kind of days where he can go out and golf he loves being outside, but because of this nasty disease he is feeling yucky. I want to take that yuckiness and shove it up cancer's a**......

I know I need to stop before I continue...

I hope everyone enjoyed the weather and hopefully it is here to stay.

Much love to all,

Aunt Rita & Aunt Joy's Visit... so far :)

Michele,

Cindy and I are here in Fla visiting Mom and Dad. Dad was so excited to see Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy!! The first thing he said to them when they walked in was "I can't believe you left on Sunday and just now arrived! For those of you who didn't hear, Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy attempted to leave on Sunday using "Buddy Passes" but were bumped about 3 times.

Kathy's husband, Brian, found them a "real" flight and they arrived on Monday. But they got lost getting from the airport to their hotel. So they didn't make it over here to see Dad until today. Another funny story.... Cindy and I drove over to their hotel this morning so they could follow us back to Mom and Dad's place (I was afraid they'd end up in Miami :) Everything was going well until I went through a light that they didn't make it through. I pulled over to the side of the road to wait...but what I didn't know was they found another car, similiar to mine,and started following it!! OMG...it was so funny!

Finally the car they were following pulled over into a welding shop and Aunt Joy said to Aunt Rita "well, I guess the girls needed something welded on their car"....it was so funny!! They finally found me and we were on our way...we were all laughing so hard we were crying! Anyway..wanted everyone to know they made it here safely and Mom and Dad were very, very happy to see them.

More updates later...

Love,Theresa

This is from Cindy:

One more thing Theresa forgot to mention....while we took dad for a ride on the golf cart...she just about broke is arm....not sure what he was doing with the steering wheel but he reached over when we where sitting still and had his hand in between the steering wheel and Theresa started to move to turn around and his arm was in in still...well remember there is bars across and she forgot she had brakes..omg..it was so funny! She said either I turn to miss the tree or break dads arm...(she didn't mean it like that but it was funny). She just forgot about the brakes! He didn't get hurt but laughed it off...you had to be there...It is a story that she won't live down for awhile!

Livestrong Challenge

This video is everything that I know I have wanted to say and I definitely know mom would want to say to cancer if we ever had the chance.... Thanks John!

http://www.livestrongchallenge.org/site/c.frKPI1PAIoE/b.5034191/k.48B6/Challenge_Cancer_Video.htm

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Our Hope Endures..

Tonya had sent to me, it is playing in the loop on here - it is called Our Hope Endures by Natalie Grant.

Some lyrics from the song really hit hard:

You would think only so much can go wrong.
Calamity only strikes once
And you assume that this one has suffered her share
Life will be kinder from here

Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear

Have you ever had a time in your life where nothing goes right, where you have no good karma while others -good karma just follows them and they catch all the breaks in the world. Does one deserve to have bad karma, I know when you go through life, some situations are suppose to make you stronger and I know we are put into situations that we can handle, but I wonder sometimes how much one has to suffer for the good karma to begin....

Dad had a busy weekend. Friday he had quite a few visitors in, playing cards and watching the basketball games on TV. Aunt Joy and Aunt Rita had come over also, but dad was with his guy friends as Aunt Rita said, so the girls mainly visited. Saturday he spent the day watching his new granddaughter Kali and today well, it was family dinner day :) - He was exhausted and just really not feeling too well. Hopefully he gets much needed rest tonight and will feel better tomorrow. I know Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy are leaving tomorrow to go see Uncle Wally - I wish them a very safe trip. I know it will be a good trip for them.

I hope everyone was able to enjoy the weather - it was a beautiful day!

Much love to all,

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Introducing Ellen Williams...

Here is a link to Becky and Andy's new baby girl. Hopefully the shock of having a girl has worn off for Becky, Ellen is just beautiful....

http://www.our365.com/NewbornPortraits/HospitalBabyDetail.aspx?birthid=43dad50a-1045-45cd-a34c-c7e218ed5c57

Friday, March 13, 2009

Message from Tonya...

Well, dad is having a decent day today. Cindy and Theresa are leaving tomorrow morning to spend a few days with them! Karen and I are headed down on the 25th, Susie and Lisa are going down in early April and I think the boys are working on their plans as well!

I’m sure Dad enjoys the peace and quiet between each trip!! That’s what you get though when you have 9 kids and you move away from them! I’m looking forward to the trip! The weather is always nice down there! We’ll all give Dad a little push in his step, keep him moving and get him stronger!!

Thanks for the continued prayers and all the cards…mom said they poured in this past week, especially since it was his birthday!!! I know that mom and dad both appreciate all of the cards, prayers and calls they’ve been receiving! And my siblings and I appreciate it as well!

It is very difficult to not be there with them physically, but the support from our extended family is a blessing!!!

Love,
Turtle

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Hopeful....

Today was a decent day - dad has his scan this morning and chemo right after that. His blood pressure was still down, but he went ahead and got the chemo anyway. While mom and I were entertaining ourselves by people watching :), dad's doctor came by and told us his blood test from last week, the numbers were down, which he said is a good sign that either the cancer is stable or it is decreasing but with blood tests numbers he just takes with a grain of salt. He will not know anything definite until we get the scan results which will be in two weeks. So that is hopeful news.

I know dad had a good week as far as eating and drinking his protein shakes, he even went to work on Tuesday at the golf course for about four hours. Of course, he said he was exhausted, but hopefully with the weather maybe getting warmer, he will be able to get out more. So keep on praying and hoping and having faith - and maybe more good news will come.

I am waiting to hear back from Tonya on Uncle Wally, so as soon as I hear anything I will let everyone know. So please continue to pray for both of them.

Much love to all,

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Amazing Grace

I have been sent this link twice already by two different people - so I think it is time I share it with everyone. It is a beautiful version of Amazing Grace - Enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtrnB4FZ-yc

I will turn my music off today so you can hear Amazing Grace, if not you will hear two songs playing at one time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!





HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


I hope you are blessed with a wonderful day and pain-free of course :) All my love!



Much love,





Tuesday, March 10, 2009

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!

I know I am a day early but just in case I don't have a chance to post until late tomorrow night, tomorrow is Uncle Wally's birthday - he will be 73 and I just wanted to wish him a happy birthday and send him all my love.
Tonya sent me this picture this morning - I think he looks a lot like dad - of course all the brothers have those Timmerding features.

Much love to all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Time change...

Oh the time has changed, it is lighter at night and it is so hard to get the kids to bed, because they don't think it is night time and they think they can stay up - if only they didn't have school in the morning.

I always love this time of year, it is like a new beginning from the long cold winter, it is a fresh start. I am hoping for a fresh start for myself, for others and especially for my dad - I hope with this warmer weather even if it is temporary it will give him an extra kick in his step and make him feel alive and make him feel happy to feel the warmth.

I know beautiful days always make me feel better, especially if you are able to spend them outside with a friend at a park, with taking walks with your kids, chatting with your neighbors, playing ball in the back yard, just anything outside. I know it is still early and we could get hit with another winter storm (let's pray not) but for now, it is good to feel the warmth and to know that change could be coming soon.

Much love to all,

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Happiness

What is true happiness? At the end of your life, can you say that you were truly happy and that you have no regrets? or is happiness just moments in your life that make you happy. It's just a question I ask - no hidden meaning behind it, just curious. I wonder at times if at the end of my life if I can say, I have no regrets I have lived a happy, good life. If at the moment, I don't think I can honestly say that, but at the end I would hope to be able to.

Isn't that what we all want is happiness? Doesn't that along with feeling loved and being loved and being in love, doesn't that fulfill your life and make it worth getting up in the morning? I believe in love and that love is all we need and I believe that having that feeling and being able to give love is what makes us happy. You can be the poorest man in the world but as long as you feel loved and have a great family - I believe you would be the richest man in the world.

Again, no hidden meanings - just a life question I suppose.

Dad looked tired today. Probably because all of the monkeys (grandkids) where there running wild. It's hard to have a quiet house when you have 4 boys running around, but luckily they were able to play outside a little bit. But he looked worn out so I am sure he is going to be hitting the sack soon. It's funny we never thought our family Sunday dinners were out of the ordinary but more and more people tell us that it is very special and they wish their family did it. Do it- life is too short not to. Mom and dad did have some old friends stop by last night that they haven't seen in years and mom said it was just like old times, that nothing has changed. She said it was a great visit. He is starting to eat/drink his shakes a little bit more and his acid reflux he said has gotten better a little bit, so just one step at a time right.

On a side note, if anyone has anything at all that they would like me to post on here, I would be more than happy to do it. It doesn't have to be just about dad or Uncle Wally, but any news you would like to share with the family. I know we have always talked about starting a family website, so we can just count this as one. So I don't mind, you can send pictures too - any story, none too small or too big!

Much love to all,

Saturday, March 7, 2009

After

chemo and dad isn't doing too well. The last two days he said has been hard - I thought in church tonight he was going to faint, he just looked real pale and just not with it - hopefully he will get some rest tonight - it just stinks having to watch him go through all of this pain - you know.

I am sending all my love and prayers down south to Uncle Wally and Aunt Bernie - just know you have a whole crew of people up here that are constantly thinking and praying for you - you are deeply missed and love and just continue to have faith and hope.

Matthew 9: 29
Because of your faith, it will happen

I have to believe our prayers will be answered and that God is going to take care of everything

Much love to all,

Friday, March 6, 2009

Message from Aunt Bernie

I know I've been slow in acknowledging emails, cards, and everything else, but I want to tell the entire 'Timmerding family, cousins, etc. thank you for all the cards, emails, and especially the prayers that you have said for us. If Wally were able, I know he would be the first to say thank you. We were hoping to be able to make a short trip to Ky. to see everyone, but right now I just don't think it is possible. If Wally can get some of his strength back, it might be possible.

Since he is home from the hospital he has had hospice and home health care personnel coming by to check on him. We need to get some meat back on those bones. He is in a lot of pain and his appetite goes up and down. I have heard some excellent things from our girls about the healing mass and just wish we could have been there to see and hear it. I'm sure we will receive some very positive results from it. Thank you Dave for arranging it.

We received the cd with all the family pics and watched it with Gary & Brian the other night. It was just great and we really enjoyed it, the boys got a few laughs out of it. We also received a cd from Dick Ante with a lot of pics on it, but haven't viewed it yet. I think one of best medicines that we have received is the trips that our kids have made down here. Wally didn't want them to come at first, but he was just being stubborn. He did perk up a lot while they were here.

Thank you God for our having such a beautiful and loving family. If I forgot to tell you, thank you for making those trips down here.Thank you all again for all the cards, emails and prayers for us.

That's what keeps us going, that and knowing that God is taking care of us.

Love, Bernie & Wally

Apple doesn't fall far....

(Joy, Dave, Wally, Grandma, Grandpa, Bill, Diane, John)
I know I am posting early and I'll probably post later, but I was going through a disk of old pictures that mom and dad had at home - notice in this picture who is the one swigging a drink - mind you it is probably not alcohol - but he wonders where us kids get it from :)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Today

Today we had a doctor's appointment and a chemo treatment. Dad wasn't feeling well in the morning - he has been having a lot of stomach pain after he eats which is making him not eat which isn't good. He did loose weight this week but hopefully since we think he is having acid reflux and the medicine he'll be taking, that will get him eating again. He said he wants to eat and knows he has to eat but it's just too painful.

The only thing I did not like about the doctor today and he is a great doctor and all and he tells us the reality of everything and doesn't hold back which is good and bad. We were talking about something and he said well in all reality you may not be here next year. And mom and I were both well he will be because we have hope and he will be that 1% that makes it past your diagnosis. I just didn't like him saying that....

Dad did take chemo today and he will go back next week. They are scheduling some scans too to since if the chemo is doing anything to the cancer or what is happening in there. But I am not sure when those are and he doesn't see the doctor until the 26th - so it's always waiting.

I just wanted to say a big THANK YOU to Marie Tobler for scheduling that mass on Tuesday night. What a wonderful experience it was for everyone and I just wanted to say Thank you for allowing us to all be there and for inviting us.

Much love to you all,

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Old Photos




Here is an old photo of Uncle Wally. Uncle Dave sent it to me. Don't you love the suspenders with no shirt under it :)



In this photo it is Tom, Dave, John, Dad, and Tom Ante. It is easy to see where all the sons get their looks. Everyone looks just like their dads :)

** If anyone has old photos or any photos for that matter that they would like me to post on here, I would be more than happy to. I love to see the history of our family -

Remarkable

Last night was the healing mass at All Saints in Walton. And all I can say what a powerful night (for me at least) it was.It was amazing to see how much family was there and it made me realize once again how blessed we truly are to be a part of this circle of friends and family. It is just amazing!

It was a regular mass and afterwards Father was giving healing prayers to each individual that went up there. I have never been to one of these masses and I didn't know what to expect. I saw people crying and ladies fainting and I was thinking oh goodness, really?

So I sat in the pew debating the whole time whether to go up there or not and if I really needed it at all, I wasn't sick, I didn't have any disease, but we all have needs don't we? As I continued to watch and debate, Aunt Carol came up to me and hugged and hugged me and she whispered in my ear to go to Father and have him say a prayer for you - she said it like three times. So I went.

Needless to say as I was walking up I continued to just be like, what am I doing. But I decided to just have an open heart and mind and just take it all in. I concentrated on Jesus and God and what he did for us to save us from sin. I thought about dad and Uncle Wally and just the struggles are families are going through right now, as I stood there waiting for my prayer and annointment, they started playing Amazing Grace - of course there began the waterfall - there is just something about that song and of course standing next to Lisa Collins didn't help either because she was as bad as I was.

But my heart was so heavy and it has been for so long and as Father approached me he could tell I was already crying and upset and he had one of the "catchers" (one of the people that were there to catch people) come up to me. He said a prayer and annointed me and in that moment as I looked into his eyes and as I listened to him, all I could feel was peace and this overwhelming love coming from God. It was like he was putting his arms around me and saying, It is going to be okay, you are going to be okay! The lady "catcher" that was there hugged me and kept telling me to just breath and take it all in and just to feel his love surround me and that God sees everything and he knows everything and that he will take care of you.

Of course, Lisa had lost it too and as we were walking back to the pew I stopped and hugged mom and dad and I just didn't want to let dad go, I was sobbing and I haven't cried liked that in a long time, and dad just said he loved me and that everything was going to be okay. The one funny thing that did happen was Father called Lisa my mom :)..... She didn't like it too much!

It is so hard to describe the feeling unless you were there, unless you felt it too. But it was one of the most powerful, and amazing moments I have ever had in my life and I am so grateful that I was there! And I think Aunt Carol for giving me the encouragement to go up there.

Much love to you all,

Congrats Becky and Andy!!!!

Aunt Joy asked me to tell everyone that Becky had a baby GIRL at 6:30 pm on Tuesday, 3/3/09.
Weight 6-11.
No name yet.LoveAunt Rita

Monday, March 2, 2009


Dad is fine, he was going to go visit his new granddaughter today - so he was excited.
Not sure if you can see the picture very well, but it's basically telling me when it
s--ts it just keeps on coming and some days I feel like that - with just life in general you know - why us, why r family, what is the purpose of all of this???????

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Starting out bad...


Here is a picture of Kali Michelle - she is beautiful, she looks like Mindy I think, I haven't met her yet, due to my boys being sick, I didn't want to be around the new baby, but I'll go visit this week - definitely!


The weekend started out bad for dad - he felt horrible yesterday - he was up all night on Friday night and just felt horrible all day yesterday - he felt so bad he didn't even want visitors even from us. But today he was feeling much better. The doctor took him off of his high blood pressure medicine and dad said that has been helping him a lot not to have headaches or to have any dizzy/white light spells - so he feels much better not taking it. He has lost so much weight he shouldn't have to be on it anyway. But today was a good day for him - he said he had a headache from all of the noise, but he knows he would of been more miserable if we all didn't come over for Sunday dinner :)

But when I left he seemed to be in good spirits. I know he is excited to go meet his new granddaughter - he loves little girls. So hopefully he'll be able to make it down there tomorrow.

I was told today that Uncle Wally will not be making the trip home with Gary and Brian :( That is such a long trip maybe they can look into flying him up for the week - because it is an awful long driving even when you do feel good.

**Mass - Tuesday Night at All Saints in Walton, KY - it is Fr. McAlear - he is best known for his healing ministry. Mass is at 7:00pm and all are welcome to attend. I know the mass intention is for the Timmerding Family.

I know I posted late tonight but the day got away - just know that prayers are working and miracles continue to happen every day - and it is going to be our faith that pulls us through whatever is ahead.

Much love to all,