Tuesday, March 31, 2009
The call...
They wanted us to go to the VA Hospital - so we go over there and they sent us to the emergency room - and mind you during this whole time dad is still in extreme pain. The admissions clerk at the emergency room told us the nurse was at lunch and there were five people in front of us and I told him "Are you freaking kidding me" - Don't you think if it is an emergency you should get in right away- I was so aggravated - so we didn't get back to see anyone for an hour, I kept trying to be pushy and I even told the admissions clerk that he didn't understand how hard it was to see someone you love in so much pain and not be able to do anything about it.
So we get through the nurse and then we see another nurse who asked the same questions the first nurse did and finally after about two hours he started to get some pain medicine. He was dehyrdrated so they started him on fluids, and throughout the day he was in so much pain. They did take a scan of his chest and his stomach. His extreme pain is in the stomach area and he was sensitive to touch it - but the doctor on call said they weren't sure why he was in so much pain, that they will have to admit him.
So there he is in the VA Hospital not knowing what is going, not knowing why he is having all of this pain, he was suppose to have a scan first thing tomorrow morning but they pushed that off because they said it may be the tumor repositioning itself. All I know is he is in ALOT of pain and it took us almost 7hours to get a room and for him to get some type of relief. I hear all emergency rooms are like this, if that is the case, I hope no one has a dire emergency - Unbelievable.
So we will back at the hospital tomorrow hopefully to get answers and all I want is for him to get relief for the pain, I know it is tearing us apart those who see him, that he is in that much pain and there is nothing we can do - nothing!
I'll keep everyone updated as soon as I know anything.
Much love to all,
Monday, March 30, 2009
I hope no one is offended....
Wife has the last say...
A husband and his wife who have been married 20 years were doing some yard work. The man was working hard cleaning the BBQ grill while his wife was bending over, weeding flowers from the flower bed. So the man says to his wife "Your rear end is almost as wide as this grill" She ignores the remark. A little later, the husband takes his measuring tape and measures the grill, then he goes over to his wife while she is bending over, measures her rear end and gasps, "Geez, it really IS as wide as the grill!" She ignores this remark as well. Later that night while in bed, her husband starts to feel frisky. The wife calmly responds, "If you think I'm gonna fire up the grill for one little wiener, you are sadly mistaken."
Not too much to report tonight, just wanted to share that joke and I know none of the Timmerdings will be offended - us kids had to get it from somewhere. I haven't talked to dad today, I am giving him a break of my pestering. I know he reads this so he knows he needs to EAT and DRINK plenty of fluids....
I'll get an update on Uncle Wally tonight or tomorrow night. I know Tonya and Karen did make it back home safely -
Much love to all,
Sunday, March 29, 2009
He said today that he doesn't have any desire to eat which isn't good - he needs to pack on the pounds. I think with the full chemo dosage we are getting to see what it is really going to be like. When he was only getting 1/4 of the dosage his sound effects weren't too bad but now they are. We have this week off so we will see how he does. I know on Sunday evenings he is exhausted, I know he loves all of us over but especially when it rains and we are all stuck inside it can get pretty crazy - especially with the majority being boys. So I am sure by the time we leave he is grateful.
It is amazing how some people have faith and others don't - I guess you just always assume everyone has some type of faith, but I can understand why people don't. I know there are days and sometimes it seems a lot lately, but there are many moments when I don't have faith, and I just blame him for everything that is going on right now in our lives and in my life. I try to be good and do what is right for him to reward and enrich my life and yet it seems like it doesn't happen and others they just have that lucky streak for them at all times and they may not even have faith. So is it really faith and following God that brings us our just rewards - he is the one in charge of our life right? Or is just simple luck and good karma that really bring us our just rewards.
I am glad the "Seniors" had a great time on their trip, but as dad said to one of his friends at church on Saturday evening - "Well I am sure they didn't have that much fun because I wasn't there" :)..... And he wonders where Sean gets the idea that he is the "Party in the Can".....
I hope everyone has a great week and the weather turns around.
Much love to all,
Saturday, March 28, 2009
The Notebook....
It is just an amazing testimony to how much one person can love another person. Do you have that in your life - do you have such a deep love that your heart would be completely broken and you would be completely lost without that person that you would just rather not go on living. Can you say today that you are married to your soulmate?
Is it best to choose with your conscious with what you know is the right thing to do, or do you follow your heart?
Just questions in life again.
Dad isn't doing well - he has been very sick since Thursday night so I guess the chemo is working since he got a full dose. But he has been sleeping alot and just feeling blah, blah, blah. I do know that Deacon from Knights of Columbus came up yesterday to see him. So that was good. I am not sure if he will be in church tonight or not. And he wasn't able to make it on the "Senior Trip" because he felt so bad. :(
Hopefully he had a good day today. But the weather makes it kind of nice just to lay in bed and do nothing all day!
Much love to all,
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Results...
He also had been put on blood thinner because he has a small blood clot in his stomach area which is causing his stomach problems. And he is on another medicine to help with his white blood counts in between chemo to get them back up. So more medicine I know he is so excited.
Unfortunately he lost weight so I am on him to eat more, but he wasn't eating that much because of it hurting so hopefully this blood thinner will help everything out.
So here we are just stable! I guess that is good news but I was hoping to hear oh my gosh, it is a miracle it shrank and you are fine! - Fat chance huh.....
All dad's brothers and sisters are on their yearly trip this weekend - they call it the "Seniors Trip" so hopefully he feels well enough that he will make it at least for a day. They only go a couple of hours away and just for the weekend - so maybe he will be able to make it.
Tonya and Karen made it to Florida - I'll get an update on Uncle Wally later.
Much love to all,
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tomorrow is the day....
Dad has said he hasn't been feeling too well, a lot of stomach pain, mom said maybe it is the cancer inside beating out the tumor - mom: always trying to be funny :)
Here is a little poem that Aunt Carol had put in the comment section but I thought I'd share here because I am not sure who all reads the comments - but it is pretty fitting for what our families are going through:
If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Ever moment, Thank God.
I will post tomorrow as soon as I can - Tonya and Karen are leaving today or tomorrow to go see Uncle Wally - here is to a good and safe trip for both of them. I'll update on both dad and Uncle Wally as soon as I hear news. Until then, thank you to everyone for all of your support and prayers and tomorrow we will find out if that little nasty tumor has shrunk at all.
Much love to all,
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Grandpa and Kali

Sometimes your steps are very fast,sometimes they’re hard to see.
Someday when I’m all grown up,you’re what I want to be.
Then I will have a little child Who’ll want to follow me.
And I would want to lead just right,and know that I was true.
So walk a little slower, Grandpa, for I must follow you.”
On a side note: Sean and Lisa are selling their house - it used to be Aunt Joy's house in Latonia, KY - They want to try to keep it in the family because it is such a beautiful house and has such wonderful memories. If anyone knows anyone in the family or extended family that is in the market to buy a house please email me and I can give you Sean's phone number.
Much love to all,
Monday, March 23, 2009
New Addition... Welcome Ethan
I didn't make it to church tonight because Steve's sister Susan had her baby. She had a boy and named him Ethan (which we already knew) he was 8lbs 9ozs and everyone is doing well. Tis the season for babies, next up is Sean and Lisa due in July. Busy, busy year for babies - I guess everyone was bored in the fall/winter :)Trip
Dad had a decent weekend, I know him and mom took a walk yesterday and when I got there he was feeling pretty good but he said he just took his medicine. By the time we left he wasn't feeling too good so I think it was time for more medicine and to lay down. It was such a beautiful day out and I think it helps dad when the weather is good because how can one be so down when the weather is so beautiful you know.
This is our week to see the doctor and get the results of the scan - I think we are all kind of nervous about it because we will actually know if the chemo is working or not - so think positive thoughts all week!
Much love to all,
Saturday, March 21, 2009
But he went down there and I am sure he had some doubts and worries about going there because he doesn't want anyone's pity and look at him all sad and sorrowful, but the guys were great and I could tell he is greatly missed down there - But it was nice because all five of us kids were able to meet down there along with mom and dad - we didn't stay too long, because I am sure the fried smell and the smoke smell got to dad, because it always does me, but we were glad and his friends were glad he made it down there.
He said in church tonight he had an okay day and he is just in good spirits - which is amazing but like he said what can you do, you know. I hope everyone is enjoying this weather hopefully we won't see cold or snow anymore and it is here to stay.
I will post tomorrow after our Sunday dinner - wonder what is on the menu this week :)
Much love to all,
Friday, March 20, 2009
Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy's Visit...
We had a beautiful visit with Wally and Saint Bernie ( she earned her sainthood caring for Wally). Just kidding !
We spent most of day on Tuesday and Wednesday with Wally and Bernie. On Tuesday we went out to dinner with Bernie while the girls were there with Wally. Wally really missed the girls when they went out in the afternoon while we were there. It was funny because he kept asking when they were coming home. I think he missed their energy and fun.
We went to oncologist with Wally and Bernie at Wally's request. We were glad we went.The oncologist is a very compassionate and kind man. The nurse brought extra chairs in the room for us and seemed to be glad we were there. How about that.I found out that the drug Wally is taking is the only approved drug for liver cancer. Not a curative drug but a drug that stops the progression of the tumor by cutting off the blood supply to the tumor. The oncologist has seen some good results from this drug even in the case of his own father.
Wally had a good report and doesn't have to go back to oncologist for a month, as long as no problems. This report by his doctor seemed to really lift his spirits.
On Thursday we had a short goodby visit with Wally and Bernie and were on our way to the airport. We made it to the airport without mishap. Well we did have one small one. As an addendum to the welding shop story: Aunt Joy in her very quiet way said to me " Are you sure that's the right car that pulled into the welding shop?" And I replied "Oh sure That's the right car." Oh well can't always be right.
Love to all
Aunt Rita
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Today
He said he felt good yesterday - he even went fishing. Well he went out with a friend intending to fish but they just sat in lawn chairs and enjoyed the weather and just talked - he said it was really nice. But I am glad he was able to do it. He was actually in a pretty good mood today and I asked him why he was in such a good mood and he said "Well why be a grump" And you know he is right, you have to deal with the cards you are dealt and you have to make the best of it, so why go through life all grumpy and hating life and it makes me so happy and so proud that he is taking that approach to this whole situation. It would make it hard if he was laying around grumpy all of the time and just feeling sorry for himself. It is totally understandable if he does, but we are all going to go sometime as he says and we just have to live each day to its fullest because you never know if tomorrow will come.
So don't be a grump - live your life to the fullest and take each moment and make it a memory.
Much love to all,
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Yucky
I hope everyone has a chance to watch the cancer video that I posted earlier because I have a few choice words I would like to say to that cancer and what it is doing to our family - it is quite the bastard isn't it.
Sorry - it just makes me angry some days and today is an angry day. It was such a beautiful day and dad loves these kind of days where he can go out and golf he loves being outside, but because of this nasty disease he is feeling yucky. I want to take that yuckiness and shove it up cancer's a**......
I know I need to stop before I continue...
I hope everyone enjoyed the weather and hopefully it is here to stay.
Much love to all,
Aunt Rita & Aunt Joy's Visit... so far :)
Cindy and I are here in Fla visiting Mom and Dad. Dad was so excited to see Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy!! The first thing he said to them when they walked in was "I can't believe you left on Sunday and just now arrived! For those of you who didn't hear, Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy attempted to leave on Sunday using "Buddy Passes" but were bumped about 3 times.
Kathy's husband, Brian, found them a "real" flight and they arrived on Monday. But they got lost getting from the airport to their hotel. So they didn't make it over here to see Dad until today. Another funny story.... Cindy and I drove over to their hotel this morning so they could follow us back to Mom and Dad's place (I was afraid they'd end up in Miami :) Everything was going well until I went through a light that they didn't make it through. I pulled over to the side of the road to wait...but what I didn't know was they found another car, similiar to mine,and started following it!! OMG...it was so funny!
Finally the car they were following pulled over into a welding shop and Aunt Joy said to Aunt Rita "well, I guess the girls needed something welded on their car"....it was so funny!! They finally found me and we were on our way...we were all laughing so hard we were crying! Anyway..wanted everyone to know they made it here safely and Mom and Dad were very, very happy to see them.
More updates later...
Love,Theresa
This is from Cindy:
One more thing Theresa forgot to mention....while we took dad for a ride on the golf cart...she just about broke is arm....not sure what he was doing with the steering wheel but he reached over when we where sitting still and had his hand in between the steering wheel and Theresa started to move to turn around and his arm was in in still...well remember there is bars across and she forgot she had brakes..omg..it was so funny! She said either I turn to miss the tree or break dads arm...(she didn't mean it like that but it was funny). She just forgot about the brakes! He didn't get hurt but laughed it off...you had to be there...It is a story that she won't live down for awhile!
Livestrong Challenge
http://www.livestrongchallenge.org/site/c.frKPI1PAIoE/b.5034191/k.48B6/Challenge_Cancer_Video.htm
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Our Hope Endures..
Some lyrics from the song really hit hard:
You would think only so much can go wrong.
Calamity only strikes once
And you assume that this one has suffered her share
Life will be kinder from here
Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear
Have you ever had a time in your life where nothing goes right, where you have no good karma while others -good karma just follows them and they catch all the breaks in the world. Does one deserve to have bad karma, I know when you go through life, some situations are suppose to make you stronger and I know we are put into situations that we can handle, but I wonder sometimes how much one has to suffer for the good karma to begin....
Dad had a busy weekend. Friday he had quite a few visitors in, playing cards and watching the basketball games on TV. Aunt Joy and Aunt Rita had come over also, but dad was with his guy friends as Aunt Rita said, so the girls mainly visited. Saturday he spent the day watching his new granddaughter Kali and today well, it was family dinner day :) - He was exhausted and just really not feeling too well. Hopefully he gets much needed rest tonight and will feel better tomorrow. I know Aunt Rita and Aunt Joy are leaving tomorrow to go see Uncle Wally - I wish them a very safe trip. I know it will be a good trip for them.
I hope everyone was able to enjoy the weather - it was a beautiful day!
Much love to all,
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Introducing Ellen Williams...
http://www.our365.com/NewbornPortraits/HospitalBabyDetail.aspx?birthid=43dad50a-1045-45cd-a34c-c7e218ed5c57
Friday, March 13, 2009
Message from Tonya...
I’m sure Dad enjoys the peace and quiet between each trip!! That’s what you get though when you have 9 kids and you move away from them! I’m looking forward to the trip! The weather is always nice down there! We’ll all give Dad a little push in his step, keep him moving and get him stronger!!
Thanks for the continued prayers and all the cards…mom said they poured in this past week, especially since it was his birthday!!! I know that mom and dad both appreciate all of the cards, prayers and calls they’ve been receiving! And my siblings and I appreciate it as well!
It is very difficult to not be there with them physically, but the support from our extended family is a blessing!!!
Love,
Turtle
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Hopeful....
I know dad had a good week as far as eating and drinking his protein shakes, he even went to work on Tuesday at the golf course for about four hours. Of course, he said he was exhausted, but hopefully with the weather maybe getting warmer, he will be able to get out more. So keep on praying and hoping and having faith - and maybe more good news will come.
I am waiting to hear back from Tonya on Uncle Wally, so as soon as I hear anything I will let everyone know. So please continue to pray for both of them.
Much love to all,
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Amazing Grace
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtrnB4FZ-yc
I will turn my music off today so you can hear Amazing Grace, if not you will hear two songs playing at one time.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!
I know I am a day early but just in case I don't have a chance to post until late tomorrow night, tomorrow is Uncle Wally's birthday - he will be 73 and I just wanted to wish him a happy birthday and send him all my love. Monday, March 9, 2009
Time change...
I always love this time of year, it is like a new beginning from the long cold winter, it is a fresh start. I am hoping for a fresh start for myself, for others and especially for my dad - I hope with this warmer weather even if it is temporary it will give him an extra kick in his step and make him feel alive and make him feel happy to feel the warmth.
I know beautiful days always make me feel better, especially if you are able to spend them outside with a friend at a park, with taking walks with your kids, chatting with your neighbors, playing ball in the back yard, just anything outside. I know it is still early and we could get hit with another winter storm (let's pray not) but for now, it is good to feel the warmth and to know that change could be coming soon.
Much love to all,
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Happiness
Isn't that what we all want is happiness? Doesn't that along with feeling loved and being loved and being in love, doesn't that fulfill your life and make it worth getting up in the morning? I believe in love and that love is all we need and I believe that having that feeling and being able to give love is what makes us happy. You can be the poorest man in the world but as long as you feel loved and have a great family - I believe you would be the richest man in the world.
Again, no hidden meanings - just a life question I suppose.
Dad looked tired today. Probably because all of the monkeys (grandkids) where there running wild. It's hard to have a quiet house when you have 4 boys running around, but luckily they were able to play outside a little bit. But he looked worn out so I am sure he is going to be hitting the sack soon. It's funny we never thought our family Sunday dinners were out of the ordinary but more and more people tell us that it is very special and they wish their family did it. Do it- life is too short not to. Mom and dad did have some old friends stop by last night that they haven't seen in years and mom said it was just like old times, that nothing has changed. She said it was a great visit. He is starting to eat/drink his shakes a little bit more and his acid reflux he said has gotten better a little bit, so just one step at a time right.
On a side note, if anyone has anything at all that they would like me to post on here, I would be more than happy to do it. It doesn't have to be just about dad or Uncle Wally, but any news you would like to share with the family. I know we have always talked about starting a family website, so we can just count this as one. So I don't mind, you can send pictures too - any story, none too small or too big!
Much love to all,
Saturday, March 7, 2009
After
I am sending all my love and prayers down south to Uncle Wally and Aunt Bernie - just know you have a whole crew of people up here that are constantly thinking and praying for you - you are deeply missed and love and just continue to have faith and hope.
Matthew 9: 29
Because of your faith, it will happen
I have to believe our prayers will be answered and that God is going to take care of everything
Much love to all,
Friday, March 6, 2009
Message from Aunt Bernie
Since he is home from the hospital he has had hospice and home health care personnel coming by to check on him. We need to get some meat back on those bones. He is in a lot of pain and his appetite goes up and down. I have heard some excellent things from our girls about the healing mass and just wish we could have been there to see and hear it. I'm sure we will receive some very positive results from it. Thank you Dave for arranging it.
We received the cd with all the family pics and watched it with Gary & Brian the other night. It was just great and we really enjoyed it, the boys got a few laughs out of it. We also received a cd from Dick Ante with a lot of pics on it, but haven't viewed it yet. I think one of best medicines that we have received is the trips that our kids have made down here. Wally didn't want them to come at first, but he was just being stubborn. He did perk up a lot while they were here.
Thank you God for our having such a beautiful and loving family. If I forgot to tell you, thank you for making those trips down here.Thank you all again for all the cards, emails and prayers for us.
That's what keeps us going, that and knowing that God is taking care of us.
Love, Bernie & Wally
Apple doesn't fall far....
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Today
The only thing I did not like about the doctor today and he is a great doctor and all and he tells us the reality of everything and doesn't hold back which is good and bad. We were talking about something and he said well in all reality you may not be here next year. And mom and I were both well he will be because we have hope and he will be that 1% that makes it past your diagnosis. I just didn't like him saying that....
Dad did take chemo today and he will go back next week. They are scheduling some scans too to since if the chemo is doing anything to the cancer or what is happening in there. But I am not sure when those are and he doesn't see the doctor until the 26th - so it's always waiting.
I just wanted to say a big THANK YOU to Marie Tobler for scheduling that mass on Tuesday night. What a wonderful experience it was for everyone and I just wanted to say Thank you for allowing us to all be there and for inviting us.
Much love to you all,
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Old Photos
Here is an old photo of Uncle Wally. Uncle Dave sent it to me. Don't you love the suspenders with no shirt under it :)
In this photo it is Tom, Dave, John, Dad, and Tom Ante. It is easy to see where all the sons get their looks. Everyone looks just like their dads :)
** If anyone has old photos or any photos for that matter that they would like me to post on here, I would be more than happy to. I love to see the history of our family -
Remarkable
It was a regular mass and afterwards Father was giving healing prayers to each individual that went up there. I have never been to one of these masses and I didn't know what to expect. I saw people crying and ladies fainting and I was thinking oh goodness, really?
So I sat in the pew debating the whole time whether to go up there or not and if I really needed it at all, I wasn't sick, I didn't have any disease, but we all have needs don't we? As I continued to watch and debate, Aunt Carol came up to me and hugged and hugged me and she whispered in my ear to go to Father and have him say a prayer for you - she said it like three times. So I went.
Needless to say as I was walking up I continued to just be like, what am I doing. But I decided to just have an open heart and mind and just take it all in. I concentrated on Jesus and God and what he did for us to save us from sin. I thought about dad and Uncle Wally and just the struggles are families are going through right now, as I stood there waiting for my prayer and annointment, they started playing Amazing Grace - of course there began the waterfall - there is just something about that song and of course standing next to Lisa Collins didn't help either because she was as bad as I was.
But my heart was so heavy and it has been for so long and as Father approached me he could tell I was already crying and upset and he had one of the "catchers" (one of the people that were there to catch people) come up to me. He said a prayer and annointed me and in that moment as I looked into his eyes and as I listened to him, all I could feel was peace and this overwhelming love coming from God. It was like he was putting his arms around me and saying, It is going to be okay, you are going to be okay! The lady "catcher" that was there hugged me and kept telling me to just breath and take it all in and just to feel his love surround me and that God sees everything and he knows everything and that he will take care of you.
Of course, Lisa had lost it too and as we were walking back to the pew I stopped and hugged mom and dad and I just didn't want to let dad go, I was sobbing and I haven't cried liked that in a long time, and dad just said he loved me and that everything was going to be okay. The one funny thing that did happen was Father called Lisa my mom :)..... She didn't like it too much!
It is so hard to describe the feeling unless you were there, unless you felt it too. But it was one of the most powerful, and amazing moments I have ever had in my life and I am so grateful that I was there! And I think Aunt Carol for giving me the encouragement to go up there.
Much love to you all,
Congrats Becky and Andy!!!!
Weight 6-11.
No name yet.LoveAunt Rita
Monday, March 2, 2009

Sunday, March 1, 2009
Starting out bad...




