Saturday, February 28, 2009
It's
a GIRL!!!!! Jeremy and Mindy welcomed Kali Michelle Timmerding into the world at 4:37am - she is 8lbs, 14oz and 21inches - Mommy and baby are doing well!
Friday, February 27, 2009
It's begun...
At this moment Jeremy and Mindy are in the hospital - she is having strong contractions, and she is only 4cm - Dad told Jeremy to pack a 12 pack it is going to be a long night - so please say an extra prayer in hoping all goes well with the delivery and the baby. I will let you know as soon as I know how things went and if it's a boy or a girl.
Mom said dad had a bit of a rough day in that he is in pain because of not being able to... still, but he is being stubborn (It's that Timmerding stubborness trait) and refusing to take some of the medicine he needs to and of course anything he does take he wants it to work right away.
The deacon from the Knights of Columbus which dad is a member of - stopped by the house this morning and sat and talked with dad for a while. He also gave him communion which was nice. Dad laughs because he is still able to walk and go to church but it was very nice of him to come by. I believe he will be coming by weekly so that is good. Uncle Tom also made his weekly visit - I know it does dad good when company is up.
I know Tonya left a comment in last night's post. Cindy did not make the trip because she is still sick, but the boys are down there and hopefully Uncle Wally feels well enough to make the trip home, even if it is just a visit, I know many people want to see him.
Good luck to Jeremy and Mindy - what an awesome moment of bringing a new life into this world, it is just amazing!
Much love to all,
Mom said dad had a bit of a rough day in that he is in pain because of not being able to... still, but he is being stubborn (It's that Timmerding stubborness trait) and refusing to take some of the medicine he needs to and of course anything he does take he wants it to work right away.
The deacon from the Knights of Columbus which dad is a member of - stopped by the house this morning and sat and talked with dad for a while. He also gave him communion which was nice. Dad laughs because he is still able to walk and go to church but it was very nice of him to come by. I believe he will be coming by weekly so that is good. Uncle Tom also made his weekly visit - I know it does dad good when company is up.
I know Tonya left a comment in last night's post. Cindy did not make the trip because she is still sick, but the boys are down there and hopefully Uncle Wally feels well enough to make the trip home, even if it is just a visit, I know many people want to see him.
Good luck to Jeremy and Mindy - what an awesome moment of bringing a new life into this world, it is just amazing!
Much love to all,
Thursday, February 26, 2009
No go for Round #3
Dad didn't have chemo today :(... His blood pressure was too low and his white blood counts were down. He said yesterday when he was golfing that he saw white and that he couldn't find the key to get in, I told him it was because God knows you have more to do down here. But I asked the nurse about it today because we thought maybe it had to do with his diabetes and she said he is seeing white or gets dizzy because his blood pressure is too low and his blood pressure is too low because he isn't drinking enough fluids.
So they gave him some fluids while we were there and he had to get some more medicine. He felt dizzy on the way home, so he was going to eat, take his medicine and lay down. He was saying I was being mean, but I told him he didn't see anything yet. I emailed my sisters and I told them that we all need to ride his behind to make sure he drinks enough fluids - that way his blood pressure goes up, it would help with cleaning out his system, and it would give him more energy - the doctors can only do so much and the rest is up to him. So when he said I was being mean, I said, Oh I am sorry, I want you to live....
When I left he looked pretty pale so hopefully after some rest and taking some of his medicine he'll feel a little better. I know he was disappointed about not getting the chemo, but we go back next week and see the doctor and are suppose to get chemo so hopefully he will.
It's just all a big balancing act - with the medicines, his diabetes, the chemo, white blood counts, it's enough to drive a person crazy.
Much love to all,
So they gave him some fluids while we were there and he had to get some more medicine. He felt dizzy on the way home, so he was going to eat, take his medicine and lay down. He was saying I was being mean, but I told him he didn't see anything yet. I emailed my sisters and I told them that we all need to ride his behind to make sure he drinks enough fluids - that way his blood pressure goes up, it would help with cleaning out his system, and it would give him more energy - the doctors can only do so much and the rest is up to him. So when he said I was being mean, I said, Oh I am sorry, I want you to live....
When I left he looked pretty pale so hopefully after some rest and taking some of his medicine he'll feel a little better. I know he was disappointed about not getting the chemo, but we go back next week and see the doctor and are suppose to get chemo so hopefully he will.
It's just all a big balancing act - with the medicines, his diabetes, the chemo, white blood counts, it's enough to drive a person crazy.
Much love to all,
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Round #3
What a beautiful today was! The warm sun just lets you hope that spring is around the corner but knowing the weather around here we'll see snow again soon. Dad went out and played golf today, he only played three holes but at least he was out in the warm sun and out of the house. I think that is what makes it so hard is to be sick in the winter time because you can't really get out much. So hopefully it will stay warm to where he can get outside more and being in the warm sunshine always make everyone well at least me better and like there is hope in the air.
Tomorrow is round 3 of chemo, hopefully his blood counts are up to where he can take it. Also need to see what we can do about his blood sugar, it gets too high and that is when he gets dizzy or doesn't feel well. It's all a balancing act. Certain foods he eats he is in pain because of his pancreas but then he has to watch certain things he eats because of his diabetes. It's a never ending battle - Ugh!
Jeremy and Mindy still have not had their baby yet. They were due yesterday. She goes to the doctor tomorrow and she is hoping they induce her, she said she is so ready for it. Didn't get any updates on Uncle Wally today, but I do know Gary is going down there with Brian, not sure if Cindy is well enough or not, she had bronchitis and the doctors told her not to go so hopefully she feels better. But I'll update everyone as soon as I hear of anything.
Enjoy the weather and keep praying - God does work miracles.
Much love to all,
Tomorrow is round 3 of chemo, hopefully his blood counts are up to where he can take it. Also need to see what we can do about his blood sugar, it gets too high and that is when he gets dizzy or doesn't feel well. It's all a balancing act. Certain foods he eats he is in pain because of his pancreas but then he has to watch certain things he eats because of his diabetes. It's a never ending battle - Ugh!
Jeremy and Mindy still have not had their baby yet. They were due yesterday. She goes to the doctor tomorrow and she is hoping they induce her, she said she is so ready for it. Didn't get any updates on Uncle Wally today, but I do know Gary is going down there with Brian, not sure if Cindy is well enough or not, she had bronchitis and the doctors told her not to go so hopefully she feels better. But I'll update everyone as soon as I hear of anything.
Enjoy the weather and keep praying - God does work miracles.
Much love to all,
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Prayers
I just talked to mom and dad was feeling good today. Last night he didn't feel too well that is why he left right after mass. But today he seems much better - he told mom he plans on playing golf tomorrow - can't keep the golfer down.
Here are two prayers that I received in my emails that I thought I'd share with you.
" I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to find out there is. "
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This one is from a friend of Aunt Toni's
Father, as Judy and Brent are saying “Thy Will Be Done” in the experiments on Brent, we repeat these words for Bill and Wally Timmerding as they battle cancer. Sometimes when I say those words I confess my lack of hope because I know Your ways are not our ways. Please Father, change my heart to say those words with joy in You and Your ways and with the knowledge and certitude that you hear and answer all our prayers. May Your will be done in the lives of Bill and Wally and may we rejoice in seeing Your power and Your love in all these situations. We thank You for the answers to these requests. We believe; increase our unbelief. We look forward to the day of perfect rejoicing with Jesus in heaven. In His name we pray.
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And here is mom's prayer:
"Stupid Ass Cancer! :) "
Much love to all,
Here are two prayers that I received in my emails that I thought I'd share with you.
" I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to find out there is. "
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This one is from a friend of Aunt Toni's
Father, as Judy and Brent are saying “Thy Will Be Done” in the experiments on Brent, we repeat these words for Bill and Wally Timmerding as they battle cancer. Sometimes when I say those words I confess my lack of hope because I know Your ways are not our ways. Please Father, change my heart to say those words with joy in You and Your ways and with the knowledge and certitude that you hear and answer all our prayers. May Your will be done in the lives of Bill and Wally and may we rejoice in seeing Your power and Your love in all these situations. We thank You for the answers to these requests. We believe; increase our unbelief. We look forward to the day of perfect rejoicing with Jesus in heaven. In His name we pray.
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And here is mom's prayer:
"Stupid Ass Cancer! :) "
Much love to all,
Update on Uncle Wally
I know Brian and Gary and Cindy (if she is feeling well) are going down this Thursday. Tonya said her Uncle Wally and Aunt Bernie may be coming back up with the boys as long as Uncle Wally is doing okay. Here is an email she sent me last night. I'll update later on dad.
Hey! Not sure what you’ve heard or not, but here’s the latest and greatest!
He came home yesterday! We are heading back today (or tomorrow) to get the fluid drained, but that is an outpatient procedure. He was doing great last night! Jeremy flew in yesterday, it was his first time here! That was great for dad! We sat around and looked at old pictures and laughed about childhood stories!
I’ve been giving him(dad) a hard time, but I told him it is best for him! I’ll get him up on his feet more today, hopefully!!! It is very painful for him, which makes it that much harder to push him!
He ended up having a duodenum bleeding ulcer. He had a transfusion of two pints of blood and later a transfusion of platelets. As you can imagine, that really brought him down to a low point, that Theresa, Lisa and Susan saw! I got to see a drastic improvement over a two day period!
He is really scared about taking his meds again. He wonders what caused the ulcer and nausea. He is going to ease back into his pain meds to see if the oxycodone is what is causing the nausea. We asked the doctor about prescribing the morphine, which really helped him in the hospital….it seemed as though he was going to write that prescription, but upon discharge, we had no prescription!
It can all be frustrating! You really need another set of ears to help translate and remember everything the doctors say! Mom tries her best!
They are both troopers!!! Dad really wants to make the trip to KY, which I think is GREAT! He is concerned about getting his meds straightened out right now, so he says it might be another week or two. I think we should keep coming down until then!
It is great to be here! Not only for me, but for them also! I know that dad is stubborn sometimes and makes his grumpy comments, but deep down, he loves the company!
I’ll touch base later!! How’s your dad doing? I heard he went to mass Saturday morning, so I took that as a sign that he was feeling better after the chemo?!
I’ll give you a call this evening!
Hey! Not sure what you’ve heard or not, but here’s the latest and greatest!
He came home yesterday! We are heading back today (or tomorrow) to get the fluid drained, but that is an outpatient procedure. He was doing great last night! Jeremy flew in yesterday, it was his first time here! That was great for dad! We sat around and looked at old pictures and laughed about childhood stories!
I’ve been giving him(dad) a hard time, but I told him it is best for him! I’ll get him up on his feet more today, hopefully!!! It is very painful for him, which makes it that much harder to push him!
He ended up having a duodenum bleeding ulcer. He had a transfusion of two pints of blood and later a transfusion of platelets. As you can imagine, that really brought him down to a low point, that Theresa, Lisa and Susan saw! I got to see a drastic improvement over a two day period!
He is really scared about taking his meds again. He wonders what caused the ulcer and nausea. He is going to ease back into his pain meds to see if the oxycodone is what is causing the nausea. We asked the doctor about prescribing the morphine, which really helped him in the hospital….it seemed as though he was going to write that prescription, but upon discharge, we had no prescription!
It can all be frustrating! You really need another set of ears to help translate and remember everything the doctors say! Mom tries her best!
They are both troopers!!! Dad really wants to make the trip to KY, which I think is GREAT! He is concerned about getting his meds straightened out right now, so he says it might be another week or two. I think we should keep coming down until then!
It is great to be here! Not only for me, but for them also! I know that dad is stubborn sometimes and makes his grumpy comments, but deep down, he loves the company!
I’ll touch base later!! How’s your dad doing? I heard he went to mass Saturday morning, so I took that as a sign that he was feeling better after the chemo?!
I’ll give you a call this evening!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Happy Birthday Dad!
Today is dad's birthday - he is 67!!! So young...... We celebrated with food and cake and of course our drinks, he seems to be in good spirits today. He was in a little bit more pain than normal the last two days so he called the doctor and he said to take more medicine. He had a busy weekend with visitors but he seems to be doing okay. Sorry I didn't make it to mass yesterday morning but it was so early and the baby had a rough night and I just couldn't get up, but I said an extra prayer at home for Uncle Wally (sorry girls, I know I'm lazy :) )....
But it was good to hear that Uncle Wally will be home today from the hospital. Hopefully he gets well enough to travel home to see everyone, well, it would be impossible to see the whole Timmerding family since it is so big, but at least to see his brothers/sisters and his favorite niece :).....But hopefully he can come home soon.
Mass tomorrow night at 7:00 at Holy Cross and then March 3rd is the healing mass, I'll send out a reminder next week about it.
So here is to dad and hoping he had a great birthday even with us annoying loud mouths, but then again it really wasn't a party because the party in the can wasn't there... Sean was out of town and he always says it isn't a party unless he is there! Here is to many more dad. Love you!!!!
Psalm 37:5 "Commit everything you do to the Lord, Trust him and he will help you". If we trust in him, he will take care of everything, he is our Father and it will be his will that will be done.
Much love to all,
But it was good to hear that Uncle Wally will be home today from the hospital. Hopefully he gets well enough to travel home to see everyone, well, it would be impossible to see the whole Timmerding family since it is so big, but at least to see his brothers/sisters and his favorite niece :).....But hopefully he can come home soon.
Mass tomorrow night at 7:00 at Holy Cross and then March 3rd is the healing mass, I'll send out a reminder next week about it.
So here is to dad and hoping he had a great birthday even with us annoying loud mouths, but then again it really wasn't a party because the party in the can wasn't there... Sean was out of town and he always says it isn't a party unless he is there! Here is to many more dad. Love you!!!!
Psalm 37:5 "Commit everything you do to the Lord, Trust him and he will help you". If we trust in him, he will take care of everything, he is our Father and it will be his will that will be done.
Much love to all,
Update on Uncle Wally
Michele - it was great seeing your Mom and Dad at St. Timothy's on Saturday morning. It was rather early but your Dad is looking good. He was giving your Mom a hard time about u-turns and her parking abilities so he sounds the same as always. :)
Turtle and Lisa's oldest kids (Mindy and Jeremy) are down in Florida right now visiting Mom and Dad. Dad's ulcer was cauterized during the endoscopy so it's no longer bleeding. They're treating it with an antibiotic and it seems to be working. His blood counts are good and the plan is to send him home today. He's eating/drinking okay so that's a really good sign. He'll be back on Monday to have more of the fluid drained from his abdomen which hopefully will provide more relief from the pain. He's currently on morphine in the hospital but not quite sure what meds he'll be on when he comes home. Hospice is coming in today to speak with them and they'll help coordinate the medicines, etc. Turtle says he's smiling and making cracks so he seems to be getting back to his normal self.
I can't tell you how happy that makes me since he was nothing like that when we left. Brian will be leaving on Thursday to go visit for a little bit but not sure who's going with him yet. More details to follow and thanks again for allowing me to use your blog to keep everyone updated on Dad.
Keep the cards and emails coming...I think it helps to lift both Mom and Dad's spirits! Here's their address:
103 Camellia TrailLeesburg,
FL 34748
Love,Theresa
Turtle and Lisa's oldest kids (Mindy and Jeremy) are down in Florida right now visiting Mom and Dad. Dad's ulcer was cauterized during the endoscopy so it's no longer bleeding. They're treating it with an antibiotic and it seems to be working. His blood counts are good and the plan is to send him home today. He's eating/drinking okay so that's a really good sign. He'll be back on Monday to have more of the fluid drained from his abdomen which hopefully will provide more relief from the pain. He's currently on morphine in the hospital but not quite sure what meds he'll be on when he comes home. Hospice is coming in today to speak with them and they'll help coordinate the medicines, etc. Turtle says he's smiling and making cracks so he seems to be getting back to his normal self.
I can't tell you how happy that makes me since he was nothing like that when we left. Brian will be leaving on Thursday to go visit for a little bit but not sure who's going with him yet. More details to follow and thanks again for allowing me to use your blog to keep everyone updated on Dad.
Keep the cards and emails coming...I think it helps to lift both Mom and Dad's spirits! Here's their address:
103 Camellia TrailLeesburg,
FL 34748
Love,Theresa
Friday, February 20, 2009
After chemo...
Dad is doing okay today. Last night he did get sick a couple of times but mom and I think and it probably is due to the fact after chemo yesterday he was craving fish from Long John's so I stopped and picked some up for him and of course he ate it. So it probably wasn't a good meal to have right after chemo putting all of that grease and fat into him so he paid for it. He didn't feel too sick today at least that is what he told me. He had a couple of visitors. The running joke is we will have to put a sign up sheet outside their door to keep the schedule going. BUT he loves it and it is good for him, it keeps his mind off of everything including the pain.
I am saying extra prayers for Uncle Wally and the family because I know they are going through a rough time and it makes it even harder since he is down there with just Aunt Bernie and just going through this ourselves, it helps to have support from everyone. I hope that the doctors are able to get him well enough to come home for the kid's sake and so Aunt Bernie has the support and help she needs also. I hope Mindy and Tonya have a safe trip and I know Theresa will keep us updated if I don't hear from Tonya.
I read this bible verse tonight and it is whether fitting at this time.
1 Peter 5:7
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you"
Ultimately it is all up to God, and we are all in his hands. We can worry and worry and stress ourselves out (like I know I have been doing) but we can only control so much and when he is ready to call us home, there is not enough medicine in the world to save us. But really going home isn't going to be that bad, it is what we spend our whole lives getting ready for, isn't it?
Being interrupted by a crying baby, I'll finish my ramblings another night :)
Much love to all,
I am saying extra prayers for Uncle Wally and the family because I know they are going through a rough time and it makes it even harder since he is down there with just Aunt Bernie and just going through this ourselves, it helps to have support from everyone. I hope that the doctors are able to get him well enough to come home for the kid's sake and so Aunt Bernie has the support and help she needs also. I hope Mindy and Tonya have a safe trip and I know Theresa will keep us updated if I don't hear from Tonya.
I read this bible verse tonight and it is whether fitting at this time.
1 Peter 5:7
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you"
Ultimately it is all up to God, and we are all in his hands. We can worry and worry and stress ourselves out (like I know I have been doing) but we can only control so much and when he is ready to call us home, there is not enough medicine in the world to save us. But really going home isn't going to be that bad, it is what we spend our whole lives getting ready for, isn't it?
Being interrupted by a crying baby, I'll finish my ramblings another night :)
Much love to all,
Update on Uncle Wally
Thanks Michele for allowing me to use your blog to keep everyone updated on Dad!
He's still in the hospital. He was having internal bleeding and they did an endoscopy this morning and found a large duodendum ulcer. They think that's what was causing the bleeding. He had a few blood tranfusions prior to the endoscopy because apparently he lost a lot of blood. Not exactly sure what they'll be doing to "fix" it...Mom thinks they'll be keeping him in the hospital at least thru the weekend. He's still very lethargic and weak so hopefully he'll be able to keep food/liquids down soon so he can regain his strength. His oncologist said he'd keep a close eye on him and wants to get him back on the Nexavar as soon as possible.
I'm so happy Turtle and Mindy will be there tonight to help Mom. She could use the company and needs help discussing everything with all of these doctors...very exhausting for her, I know.
But she's hanging in there and doing a wonderful job!
Love,Theresa
He's still in the hospital. He was having internal bleeding and they did an endoscopy this morning and found a large duodendum ulcer. They think that's what was causing the bleeding. He had a few blood tranfusions prior to the endoscopy because apparently he lost a lot of blood. Not exactly sure what they'll be doing to "fix" it...Mom thinks they'll be keeping him in the hospital at least thru the weekend. He's still very lethargic and weak so hopefully he'll be able to keep food/liquids down soon so he can regain his strength. His oncologist said he'd keep a close eye on him and wants to get him back on the Nexavar as soon as possible.
I'm so happy Turtle and Mindy will be there tonight to help Mom. She could use the company and needs help discussing everything with all of these doctors...very exhausting for her, I know.
But she's hanging in there and doing a wonderful job!
Love,Theresa
Thursday, February 19, 2009
More news about Uncle Wally
Thanks Aunt Cookie! You know you, Uncle Bill and your whole family are in our thoughts and prayers as well. Tell Uncle Bill to take it easy and we're thinking of him.
Dad really wants to make it home to see him.I did talk to Mom a few minutes ago and Dad has been admitted to the hospital a few hours ago. He's on an IV which is good since he hasn't been able to keep any food/liquids down for the past few days. They're running some more tests and doing lots of bloodwork.
I just feel better knowing he's in the hospital where he can get any needed help right away.We'll let you know when we hear more news.Thanks a ton.
I know my Mom wanted to post a note out here to tell everyone thank you for all of the cards, calls and emails. It helps a lot knowing that people are praying for him.
Love you guys!
Theresa
Dad really wants to make it home to see him.I did talk to Mom a few minutes ago and Dad has been admitted to the hospital a few hours ago. He's on an IV which is good since he hasn't been able to keep any food/liquids down for the past few days. They're running some more tests and doing lots of bloodwork.
I just feel better knowing he's in the hospital where he can get any needed help right away.We'll let you know when we hear more news.Thanks a ton.
I know my Mom wanted to post a note out here to tell everyone thank you for all of the cards, calls and emails. It helps a lot knowing that people are praying for him.
Love you guys!
Theresa
From Theresa....
Lisa, Susan and I made it back to town safely. It was so nice to be able to see Mom and Dad. Dad has his good days and his bad days. The last few days he wasn't really feeling too well. The doctors are working on getting his pain pills straightened out so maybe that's what is causing his nauseous stomach. The last few days he's been having a hard time eating or drinking.Turtle and Mindy are leaving for Florida in a few days. Cindy won't be able to make this trip because she has bronchitis and probably shouldn't be around Dad right now. Mom is an absolute angel. She's working so hard to take good care of Dad. It was very sad to leave this morning. I'm hoping Dad will be feeling well enough to make the trip home soon. Please say an extra prayer for both Mom and Dad.Love,Theresa
Captain Chemo - Round #2
Dad just finished his second round of chemo. It seemed to go okay, he ate a nice big lunch when we got back and was probably headed for a nap. It was a long day because they were extremely busy today so we were over there for about 4 hours. Hopefully next week won't be so long, we took the first appointment at 8:00. The doctor changed his mind again and wants dad to do chemo again next week as long as his white blood cell count is up and if his body can handle it. So we go for round #3 next week and then we see the doctor the following week.
So no major side effects just yet, but we have heard it hits people at different times, so we'll see. I had to put him and mom in time out's today - they are like two children - I told them I wasn't getting paid enough to babysit them :)
Much love to all,
So no major side effects just yet, but we have heard it hits people at different times, so we'll see. I had to put him and mom in time out's today - they are like two children - I told them I wasn't getting paid enough to babysit them :)
Much love to all,
Prayer submitted by Aunt Carol
Sorry I couldn't make it to Mass today (work!)
I did come across a prayer that I thought might be worth sharing. And hopefully Captain Chemo will be tackling the nasty "c" cells again tomorrow! Take care, Love, Carol
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning.I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God.You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thoughtthat was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.Let me make the best of each and every dayto clear my mind so that I can hear from You.Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.And give me the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may bea blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak...Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way.I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.I pray for those who don't know You intimately.I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank You that I believethat God changes people and God changes things.I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family memberin their households. I pray for peace, love and joyin their homes; that they are out of debtand all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads thisknows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God.Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be receivedinto the hearts of every eye that sees it, in Jesus' n ame. Amen!
I did come across a prayer that I thought might be worth sharing. And hopefully Captain Chemo will be tackling the nasty "c" cells again tomorrow! Take care, Love, Carol
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning.I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God.You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thoughtthat was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.Let me make the best of each and every dayto clear my mind so that I can hear from You.Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.And give me the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may bea blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak...Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way.I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.I pray for those who don't know You intimately.I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank You that I believethat God changes people and God changes things.I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family memberin their households. I pray for peace, love and joyin their homes; that they are out of debtand all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads thisknows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God.Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be receivedinto the hearts of every eye that sees it, in Jesus' n ame. Amen!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Good day
Dad is having a good day, well actually a few good days. He seems to be chipper and in good moods, maybe it's the drugs talking. Our parish priest from St. Anthony's came to the house yesterday to give him the Anointing of the Sick - dad told Father the dream he had earlier in the months when he was first diagnosed about how him and God were sitting on the back porch, etc... He said Father didn't find it too funny - tough crowd :)..... But dad is definitely in good graces with God, he has been talking to him every day as we all have. He is ready for chemo tomorrow, little nervous about the side effects, but he is ready for it, he didn't like taking this week off. He just wants to beat this thing as we all want him to.
There was a nice crowd at mass this morning - reminder that there is a mass Saturday morning at 7:00 at St. Timothy's for Uncle Wally. I know Theresa, Lisa and Susan are down there now and that Tonya and Cindy and Mindy were planning on going next week -so we wish them a safe trip.
I love the comic strip "Baby Blues" and if you are a mother, most of the time you can relate to it, I found this one and thought it was typical, especially of the men I know :)
Much love to all,
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Purpose
2 Cor 4:17
" Our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
This was in my meditation today and I find it fitting, actually I have been finding the whole book whether fitting on most days. But our families are going through such a troubled time, with both dad and Uncle Wally sick and with all of us coping with it and it just shows to me anyway that God gives us our troubles and afflicts on us to prepare us for what is ahead, to live an eternal life with him and we must go through all of this to be prepared to be with him. It's just I don't know what the word is that I am looking for, but it's why we are here on earth, we are just all temporary.
Ever since I found out that dad was sick, all of those worries, those little things of finding a job, of why aren't the dishes done tonight, or why is the house such a mess when you are raising two boys, just so many little things, I have just kind of brushed aside. For the past year, I have been looking to go back to work and there is just nothing out there or if there is, it is too little of pay to make it not worth going back after paying for babysitters, and gas etc... I kept praying to God, please help me and let something turn up or let me know what I am suppose to be doing, now I know. I know that I am suppose to be mom and dad's chauffeur and interpreter. I am suppose to be able to communicate with the whole family the daily life and struggles that we go through, I am suppose to do this, I suppose. I don't mind at all, I just wish it was much better circumstances than this to be the family communicator.
I talked to mom, dad has had some good days. He had some friends come over last night and his weekly visit from Aunt Sandy and Uncle John - he appreciates all of the friendships and like I had said in an earlier blog, it keeps his mind off the pain - at least for a bit.....
**Reminder: Mass tomorrow at 8:00am at St. Timothy's in Union - Intention is for Dad**
Much love to all,
" Our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
This was in my meditation today and I find it fitting, actually I have been finding the whole book whether fitting on most days. But our families are going through such a troubled time, with both dad and Uncle Wally sick and with all of us coping with it and it just shows to me anyway that God gives us our troubles and afflicts on us to prepare us for what is ahead, to live an eternal life with him and we must go through all of this to be prepared to be with him. It's just I don't know what the word is that I am looking for, but it's why we are here on earth, we are just all temporary.
Ever since I found out that dad was sick, all of those worries, those little things of finding a job, of why aren't the dishes done tonight, or why is the house such a mess when you are raising two boys, just so many little things, I have just kind of brushed aside. For the past year, I have been looking to go back to work and there is just nothing out there or if there is, it is too little of pay to make it not worth going back after paying for babysitters, and gas etc... I kept praying to God, please help me and let something turn up or let me know what I am suppose to be doing, now I know. I know that I am suppose to be mom and dad's chauffeur and interpreter. I am suppose to be able to communicate with the whole family the daily life and struggles that we go through, I am suppose to do this, I suppose. I don't mind at all, I just wish it was much better circumstances than this to be the family communicator.
I talked to mom, dad has had some good days. He had some friends come over last night and his weekly visit from Aunt Sandy and Uncle John - he appreciates all of the friendships and like I had said in an earlier blog, it keeps his mind off the pain - at least for a bit.....
**Reminder: Mass tomorrow at 8:00am at St. Timothy's in Union - Intention is for Dad**
Much love to all,
Monday, February 16, 2009
Cancer
What Cancer Cannot Do.....
Cancer is so limited.....
It cannot cripple Love
It cannot shatter Hope
It cannot corrode Faith
It cannot destroy Peace
It cannot kill Friendship
It cannot suppress Memories
It cannot silence Courage
It cannot invade the Soul
It cannot steal Eternal Life
It cannot conquer the Spirit
(Author Unknown)
Joshua 1:5 " I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you"
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The weekend was a good weekend for dad. He had a few visitors on Saturday and Sunday and of course all of us bombarded into the house on Sunday. I think it helps because it keeps his mind off the pain and things. His chemo is this Thursday so hopefully his white blood counts are up to where he can take it. But according to the doctor they should be. So here is to holding on to hope!
Much love to all!!
Cancer is so limited.....
It cannot cripple Love
It cannot shatter Hope
It cannot corrode Faith
It cannot destroy Peace
It cannot kill Friendship
It cannot suppress Memories
It cannot silence Courage
It cannot invade the Soul
It cannot steal Eternal Life
It cannot conquer the Spirit
(Author Unknown)
Joshua 1:5 " I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you"
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The weekend was a good weekend for dad. He had a few visitors on Saturday and Sunday and of course all of us bombarded into the house on Sunday. I think it helps because it keeps his mind off the pain and things. His chemo is this Thursday so hopefully his white blood counts are up to where he can take it. But according to the doctor they should be. So here is to holding on to hope!
Much love to all!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Mass Time Correction
The mass time for Wednesday the 18th at St.Timothy's is at 8:00am not 8:00pm.... This is the mass for dad
Inspiring
I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day. Mom is mad - she didn't want me to post that picture, but I plan on posting more - she'll get over it :)
Here is an inspiring video that Aunt Rita sent me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MslbhDZoniY
Here is an inspiring video that Aunt Rita sent me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MslbhDZoniY
I will post later tonight after our Sunday dinner :)
Much love to all,
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Mass Schedule
Here are the mass schedules that I know of that have been set up for the intentions of the Timmerding family:
Every Monday night at Holy Cross at 7:00pm
February 18th at St. Timothy's at 8:00pm - Intention is for dad
February 21st at St. Timothy's at 7:00am - Intention is for Uncle Wally
March 3rd at All Saints in Walton, KY at 7:00pm - Healing Mass: Intention for Timmerding Family
We appreciate all the masses that have been set up for both dad and Uncle Wally. If I am missing any please let me know.
Much love to all,
Every Monday night at Holy Cross at 7:00pm
February 18th at St. Timothy's at 8:00pm - Intention is for dad
February 21st at St. Timothy's at 7:00am - Intention is for Uncle Wally
March 3rd at All Saints in Walton, KY at 7:00pm - Healing Mass: Intention for Timmerding Family
We appreciate all the masses that have been set up for both dad and Uncle Wally. If I am missing any please let me know.
Much love to all,
Happy Valentine's Day
Mom is probably going to kill me but it is Valentine's Day and so I thought I'd put a wedding picture of mom and dad up. What a beautiful couple. I am sure many of you were there and remember their wedding. I found many of pictures with a beer in dad's hand and I laugh because looking through all of my siblings and my wedding pictures we all have pictures with a beer in our hand - must be a Timmerding trait :)..... (Thanks dad :) )
Mom and dad have taught us so much about love and what it means to be married, primary through example and how no matter how tough times get or what you may be going through, love will pull you through. You don't need to have all of the money in the world to be happy, all you need is love and family. And to me that makes us one of the richest families in the world.
It's Valentine's Day - it is suppose to be the most romantic day of the year and why is that, why is it that we should only express our love to our loved ones on this day and not everyday. I think Valentine's Day should be every day in the way you do little things for the ones you love, whether it is making breakfast, or letting one sleep in an extra 15 minutes, whether it is just a simple hug and saying I love you, everyday should be Valentine's.So even today is the day to tell that special someone you love them, maybe you can start a new tradition and start telling them every day - because after all, no one is guaranteed tomorrow will ever come!
Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Much love to all,
Article from Uncle Dave
I hope Uncle Dave doesn't mind but he sent me this email with this article and I wanted to share it with everyone:
We are all aware of the rise in criticism atheists are leveling at all religions, but in particular at Christianity. For example, there’s the movie by Bill Maher, “Religulous” (an obvious play on the word “ridiculous”), in which he interviews a number of Christians. Some indeed have very extreme ideas, many of which we as Catholics would not agree with. There are others who profess to be Christian but really do a very poor job of explaining what they actually say they believe. Sadly, “Religulous” has been described as “the funniest movie of the year.”
Professed atheist Christopher Hitchens has been very critical of Mother Teresa’s writings and of her experiences of the “dark night” and her spiritual desolation. Because Hitchens has little or no understanding of the true spirituality in our 2,000-year-old Christian tradition, he has gone so far as to call Mother Teresa a “closet atheist” because she spoke of her doubts and struggles. Actually, I always wondered what a professed atheist might tell his eight-year-old daughter when her grandmother dies and what explanation he would give to her. “Well, Grandma’s just gone. Where? Well, nowhere. She doesn’t exist anymore.” What a statement of emptiness and hopelessness!
As Christians, we have been gifted with one of the most significant doctrines and beliefs concerning death and eternity. Simply put, we believe that once God gives life, it never ends; we live eternally. As Catholics, we have the most positive, reliable and consoling teachings—not just about life after death but about the continuing relationship we have with our loved ones, and they with us. A non-believer could challenge and say, “Prove it.” There is, of course, no scientific proof for our belief in eternal life. However, the proof and conviction we have are in our hearts. And that conviction is the very reason why millions of Christians from all walks of life through the centuries have laid down their lives for their faith, believing they would live forever.
Eternal Life Means Those Relationships Remain Into Eternity
Our faith is based on the principle of relationship we see within the blessed Trinity itself—Father, Son and Holy Spirit. And when the word became flesh in Jesus Christ, he did not float down from heaven (as God could have done), but he was born of a woman and born into a family and lived his life in relationships. In fact, all creation is based on relationship, whether in the animal world (and surely seen in our pets) or in the solar system in which planets move in orderly relationships.
But human relationships are most important because they are God’s means of giving life to humans. Remember, Jesus taught us to call God “our father.” As people of faith, we take Jesus’ words literally: “Whoever believes in me will never die” (Jn 6:47). What that means for us as believers is that while death painfully separates us physically from our loved ones, “their life is only changed, not ended,” as the preface for our funeral Masses proclaims. It means that they are with us and we are with them. The Jesuit theologian, Karl Rahner, expressed it beautifully: “Our loved ones do not leave us. Where are they? In darkness? Oh, no! It is we who are in darkness. We do not see them but they see us. Their eyes, radiant with glory, are fixed upon our eyes, filled with tears…. They are not even absent, but living near to us, transfigured” (K. Rahner: Content of Faith, p. 625 ff).
The Deepest Truths of the Heart Are Mysteries
To share something from my own life, each morning in prayer I talk to my deceased mom (d. 1985) and dad (d. 1968). I say, “Dear Mom and Dad, thank you for the gift of life you gave Marianne (my sister) and me. Thank you for the loving, tender care you gave to us; for sharing your faith with us by word and example; for joyfully supporting us in our religious vocations (my sister is a Sister of Charity), even though it meant that you would never have your own grandchildren. Lord, bring them home to you; they deserve your special care and love because they gave us to you. And so, we now give them to you.” I am absolutely convinced that my mom and dad are always beside me in my life and ministry. After all, where would parents be except with their children, and children with their parents?
I feel certain many of you reading this column have that same deep faith and perhaps even have experienced a sense of your loved ones being close to you. And you know the difference between reality and fantasy. There are some things we can’t explain, but we know they are true. As the saying goes: “For those who believe, no explanation is necessary; for those who do not believe, no explanation is possible.”
We are all aware of the rise in criticism atheists are leveling at all religions, but in particular at Christianity. For example, there’s the movie by Bill Maher, “Religulous” (an obvious play on the word “ridiculous”), in which he interviews a number of Christians. Some indeed have very extreme ideas, many of which we as Catholics would not agree with. There are others who profess to be Christian but really do a very poor job of explaining what they actually say they believe. Sadly, “Religulous” has been described as “the funniest movie of the year.”
Professed atheist Christopher Hitchens has been very critical of Mother Teresa’s writings and of her experiences of the “dark night” and her spiritual desolation. Because Hitchens has little or no understanding of the true spirituality in our 2,000-year-old Christian tradition, he has gone so far as to call Mother Teresa a “closet atheist” because she spoke of her doubts and struggles. Actually, I always wondered what a professed atheist might tell his eight-year-old daughter when her grandmother dies and what explanation he would give to her. “Well, Grandma’s just gone. Where? Well, nowhere. She doesn’t exist anymore.” What a statement of emptiness and hopelessness!
As Christians, we have been gifted with one of the most significant doctrines and beliefs concerning death and eternity. Simply put, we believe that once God gives life, it never ends; we live eternally. As Catholics, we have the most positive, reliable and consoling teachings—not just about life after death but about the continuing relationship we have with our loved ones, and they with us. A non-believer could challenge and say, “Prove it.” There is, of course, no scientific proof for our belief in eternal life. However, the proof and conviction we have are in our hearts. And that conviction is the very reason why millions of Christians from all walks of life through the centuries have laid down their lives for their faith, believing they would live forever.
Eternal Life Means Those Relationships Remain Into Eternity
Our faith is based on the principle of relationship we see within the blessed Trinity itself—Father, Son and Holy Spirit. And when the word became flesh in Jesus Christ, he did not float down from heaven (as God could have done), but he was born of a woman and born into a family and lived his life in relationships. In fact, all creation is based on relationship, whether in the animal world (and surely seen in our pets) or in the solar system in which planets move in orderly relationships.
But human relationships are most important because they are God’s means of giving life to humans. Remember, Jesus taught us to call God “our father.” As people of faith, we take Jesus’ words literally: “Whoever believes in me will never die” (Jn 6:47). What that means for us as believers is that while death painfully separates us physically from our loved ones, “their life is only changed, not ended,” as the preface for our funeral Masses proclaims. It means that they are with us and we are with them. The Jesuit theologian, Karl Rahner, expressed it beautifully: “Our loved ones do not leave us. Where are they? In darkness? Oh, no! It is we who are in darkness. We do not see them but they see us. Their eyes, radiant with glory, are fixed upon our eyes, filled with tears…. They are not even absent, but living near to us, transfigured” (K. Rahner: Content of Faith, p. 625 ff).
The Deepest Truths of the Heart Are Mysteries
To share something from my own life, each morning in prayer I talk to my deceased mom (d. 1985) and dad (d. 1968). I say, “Dear Mom and Dad, thank you for the gift of life you gave Marianne (my sister) and me. Thank you for the loving, tender care you gave to us; for sharing your faith with us by word and example; for joyfully supporting us in our religious vocations (my sister is a Sister of Charity), even though it meant that you would never have your own grandchildren. Lord, bring them home to you; they deserve your special care and love because they gave us to you. And so, we now give them to you.” I am absolutely convinced that my mom and dad are always beside me in my life and ministry. After all, where would parents be except with their children, and children with their parents?
I feel certain many of you reading this column have that same deep faith and perhaps even have experienced a sense of your loved ones being close to you. And you know the difference between reality and fantasy. There are some things we can’t explain, but we know they are true. As the saying goes: “For those who believe, no explanation is necessary; for those who do not believe, no explanation is possible.”
Thursday, February 12, 2009
No chemo....
No chemo today. Dad was pretty upset he didn't get a treatment. His white blood cell count is down and with it being so low the doctor said he wouldn't be able to fight infection. He took this week off and then he will have chemo next week and then a week off. And then he will meet with the doctor and from there we are back to doing three weeks on, a week off, three weeks on..... Dr. Draper said that it is normal to have low white blood counts after chemo and that he has rarely seen a case where you didn't have to take a week off.
We were disappointed, but what can you do, you know. It's not in our hands. But dad didn't have any major side effects of the first round of chemo from last week, no swollen feet or nauseous, so that is good news. And his pain is manageable mainly because they changed his medicine but he is okay.
So we wait again until next week. We hope that dad will have a good day each day. We can only take one day at a time and just wake up and be thankful for the days that we do have, but we want him to be pain free and to get back to somewhat normalcy so he can enjoy life and of course play golf!
Much love to all,
We were disappointed, but what can you do, you know. It's not in our hands. But dad didn't have any major side effects of the first round of chemo from last week, no swollen feet or nauseous, so that is good news. And his pain is manageable mainly because they changed his medicine but he is okay.
So we wait again until next week. We hope that dad will have a good day each day. We can only take one day at a time and just wake up and be thankful for the days that we do have, but we want him to be pain free and to get back to somewhat normalcy so he can enjoy life and of course play golf!
Much love to all,
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Today
Dad is doing well today, gearing up and getting ready for round #2 tomorrow. It's early which is good so we can get in and get out, no waiting around. Nasty night out tonight, hope everyone is safe.
Just wanted to tell Theresa and Lisa to have a safe trip. Tell your mom and dad they are in everyone's prayers and that we love them. I really hope he gets well enough to where he can travel up here for a visit. Hugs and kisses to them both!
Did anyone see the rainbow tonight? It was beautiful, I was telling Brayden there were lepruchauns that lived at the end of the rainbows with a pot of gold and he started laughing, he never heard that story. It was too cute. And here is one more story to end with that he didn't believe me, I was tickling him the other night and I told him when I was a kid that dad while sitting on the couch or just being in an aggravating mood would and I am not kidding be able to hold us kids down with his foot and tickle us with his big toe - he has the strongest toe ever.....
Brayden again, thought that was hysterical and he said next time he sees Grandpa he was going to ask him!
Much love to all,
Just wanted to tell Theresa and Lisa to have a safe trip. Tell your mom and dad they are in everyone's prayers and that we love them. I really hope he gets well enough to where he can travel up here for a visit. Hugs and kisses to them both!
Did anyone see the rainbow tonight? It was beautiful, I was telling Brayden there were lepruchauns that lived at the end of the rainbows with a pot of gold and he started laughing, he never heard that story. It was too cute. And here is one more story to end with that he didn't believe me, I was tickling him the other night and I told him when I was a kid that dad while sitting on the couch or just being in an aggravating mood would and I am not kidding be able to hold us kids down with his foot and tickle us with his big toe - he has the strongest toe ever.....
Brayden again, thought that was hysterical and he said next time he sees Grandpa he was going to ask him!
Much love to all,
Email Address
Here is Uncle Wally's and Aunt Bernie's email address: with him having a hard time and being down there without family they would love to get words of encouragement.
wtimmerdin@aol.com.
wtimmerdin@aol.com.
Message from Theresa....
Hi Michele,Thanks so much for keeping the blog updated. Just wanted you to know Lisa and I are going to Florida to see Mom and Dad. We're leaving this Saturday and will be there until Friday, 2/20. I'm hoping between the nine kids, they'll always be at least one of us down there with them. Dad's not having a very good day today. He's in lots of pain and is still having trouble walking. They removed fluid from his abdomen on Monday morning but not sure that's helped much. He's also on pain pills and just received the other medicine today so hopefully that will help shrink the tumors. Keep your fingers crossed and say an extra prayer!Love,Theresa
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
It's a......
can you believe this one: Sean and Lisa are having a boy! Jeremy and Mindy are due any day now and we do not know what it is but out of 10 grandkids 7 are boys and 2 are girls and one undetermined. Isn't that funny how that works. I guess good thing dad didn't raise any prissy girls :).... It's just wild to have all that testerone running around we are all together - poor Olivia and Lydia they have no chance of growing up prissy.
Dad is having just an okay day. His blood suger is high, so he isn't feeling 100%, they are keeping a chart of his suger counts so we can take to the doctor on Thursday. Hopefully they can give him something to take so he doesn't feel so bad. He has visitors over there now, which he enjoys and it gets your mind off things. He did have a great day yesterday and mom said they went to church last night and he did really well. So it comes and goes. He did change pain medicine for a couple of days until we see the doctor because since he started taking his other one every three hours he was running out, so the doctor prescribed him some morphine. He hasn't taken it yet, and hopefully he doesn't have to but whatever helps him with the pain.
It's very hard to watch someone you love and especially your father, who has always been this big strong guy to be in so much pain and not be able to do anything about it. It's like when your baby is sick and he cries and cries all night but you dont' know how to help because they can't talk and you just pray to God that everything will be alright and for the child to be out of pain. That is one of my many prayers at night, is just to not have dad be in pain and to suffer, what fun is that. No one likes to be in pain.
Just a little humor from Jeff Foxworthy: " You may be a redneck if you have to go outside to get something out of the 'fridge."
Enjoy this weather, hopefully it isn't a teaser and winter is over - I am ready for Spring and for new beginnings.....
Much love to all, (Keep on hoping)
Dad is having just an okay day. His blood suger is high, so he isn't feeling 100%, they are keeping a chart of his suger counts so we can take to the doctor on Thursday. Hopefully they can give him something to take so he doesn't feel so bad. He has visitors over there now, which he enjoys and it gets your mind off things. He did have a great day yesterday and mom said they went to church last night and he did really well. So it comes and goes. He did change pain medicine for a couple of days until we see the doctor because since he started taking his other one every three hours he was running out, so the doctor prescribed him some morphine. He hasn't taken it yet, and hopefully he doesn't have to but whatever helps him with the pain.
It's very hard to watch someone you love and especially your father, who has always been this big strong guy to be in so much pain and not be able to do anything about it. It's like when your baby is sick and he cries and cries all night but you dont' know how to help because they can't talk and you just pray to God that everything will be alright and for the child to be out of pain. That is one of my many prayers at night, is just to not have dad be in pain and to suffer, what fun is that. No one likes to be in pain.
Just a little humor from Jeff Foxworthy: " You may be a redneck if you have to go outside to get something out of the 'fridge."
Enjoy this weather, hopefully it isn't a teaser and winter is over - I am ready for Spring and for new beginnings.....
Much love to all, (Keep on hoping)
Monday, February 9, 2009
Nothing new
Nothing new to post tonight. I hadn't had a chance to call mom and dad today, and I didn't make it to church - sorry :( The time got away from me today. With the weather being nicer dad was hoping to take more walks and he thought his sisters were coming up to visit, not sure if they did or not. I know yesterday he had talked about talking to the doctor about changing up his medicine to deal with the pain. He had started taking them every 3 hours instead of 4 and that seemed to help a little bit.
Chemo again this Thursday - week #2 - more fun to be had.
On a side note, Becky Williams is on bedrest with her third child, I believe she is due sometime in March, but just wanted to let her know we were thinking of her and we all know she just wanted to catch up on her soaps :).... Hope all goes well with the new arrival!
Sorry, not an exciting post tonight, it's late and I still have alot to do, I'll do better tomorrow, I promise!
Much love to all,
Chemo again this Thursday - week #2 - more fun to be had.
On a side note, Becky Williams is on bedrest with her third child, I believe she is due sometime in March, but just wanted to let her know we were thinking of her and we all know she just wanted to catch up on her soaps :).... Hope all goes well with the new arrival!
Sorry, not an exciting post tonight, it's late and I still have alot to do, I'll do better tomorrow, I promise!
Much love to all,
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Decent Day
Sorry posting so late, but didn't leave mom and dad's until late and had to do baths and get things ready for the week. Dad seemed to have a good day. He and mom took a walk this morning at the park, he said about a mile which is good. I am thankful that it is warmer outside to where he can be active and take his walks, instead of when it is snowy and icy no one wants to do anything then. But his pain is still there but he changed the schedule of his taking his medicine which I think has helped. We were all there tonight and he seemed to be doing okay. He even had a beer and said he had to drink it slow because it was tasting too good and he didn't want to overdo it :)
I read this in my meditation book and I find it fitting for what we are all going through. You should never look ahead to the challenges or the changes of this life in fear. As they arise, instead you should look at them with the assurance that God, will help you through them. So hold his hand tightly, and he will lead you safely through all things, and when you cannot stand, he will carry you in his arms.
(Matthew 28:20) Surely I am with you always
You go through your life going to church as a child because you were told you had to, and then when you are a teenage/early adulthood you question everything you have learned and what is taught, but you may never waiver your faith, you just have questions and that is fair. Then when you have children or when you get a little bit older, you go back to the church and you wait for answers or what this life holds for you, and you go because you are in need of some type of hope that everything in this life has a purpose and that there is hope, even when there seems like there is none, and that there is a reason for everything, that God knows what he is doing even though we may not like it at the time, he does have a reason. So I continue to go to church for the hope and to feel that he is with me and to hold his hand tightly, because he knows I can not take this journey nor can our family take this journey alone, without him.
Take time to enjoy the weather!
Much love to all,
I read this in my meditation book and I find it fitting for what we are all going through. You should never look ahead to the challenges or the changes of this life in fear. As they arise, instead you should look at them with the assurance that God, will help you through them. So hold his hand tightly, and he will lead you safely through all things, and when you cannot stand, he will carry you in his arms.
(Matthew 28:20) Surely I am with you always
You go through your life going to church as a child because you were told you had to, and then when you are a teenage/early adulthood you question everything you have learned and what is taught, but you may never waiver your faith, you just have questions and that is fair. Then when you have children or when you get a little bit older, you go back to the church and you wait for answers or what this life holds for you, and you go because you are in need of some type of hope that everything in this life has a purpose and that there is hope, even when there seems like there is none, and that there is a reason for everything, that God knows what he is doing even though we may not like it at the time, he does have a reason. So I continue to go to church for the hope and to feel that he is with me and to hold his hand tightly, because he knows I can not take this journey nor can our family take this journey alone, without him.
Take time to enjoy the weather!
Much love to all,
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Hope
Dad is having a bad day in the sense of the pain. He doesn't know if it's from the surgery yesterday or from the chemo, but he just isn't himself today. Please say an extra prayer for him.
Put your hope in God (Ps 43:5). There is never going to be a time that we cannot hope in God, whatever our need is, whatever troubles we are going through, and no matter how difficulty the situation is, we must always put our hope in God. Even when it seems impossible. Miracles happen every day and that is what I have been praying for and hoping for - a miracle. As many of us are.
Much love to all,
Put your hope in God (Ps 43:5). There is never going to be a time that we cannot hope in God, whatever our need is, whatever troubles we are going through, and no matter how difficulty the situation is, we must always put our hope in God. Even when it seems impossible. Miracles happen every day and that is what I have been praying for and hoping for - a miracle. As many of us are.
Much love to all,
Friday, February 6, 2009
Resting
Dad has had a long two days. With the chemo yesterday and visiting all of the doctors and then today with the surgery it's been exhausting for him. Mom said he finally did "go" enough to relieve some of the pressure that was building up, hopefully he will start "going" more. As Aunt Diana said - when has anyone known a Timmerding not be able to "go".....
We left them alone tonight because I know he is exhausted and just wants to probably sleep and watch TV and just relax. Of course we will all be over on Sunday for our Sunday dinners. It is funny, when I tell people that I still go over to my parents' house for Sunday dinners some look at me like I am strange and others think it is great. I look forward to it every week. All five of us kids may not be there but there is usually at least three of us with our kids and it is just a great catch-up time. Not that we don't talk to each other every day, but it's just I don't know, just special. And dad normally cooks a big dinner and if you butter him up enough he will cook your favorite :) It's just a tradition that I don't think will ever end, and I hope it never does.
Just wanted to leave with this quote - I hope everyone is able to call their Father - Dad, as I am proudly been able to!
" Any man can be a father, but it takes a special person to be a dad" (Proverb)
Much love to all
We left them alone tonight because I know he is exhausted and just wants to probably sleep and watch TV and just relax. Of course we will all be over on Sunday for our Sunday dinners. It is funny, when I tell people that I still go over to my parents' house for Sunday dinners some look at me like I am strange and others think it is great. I look forward to it every week. All five of us kids may not be there but there is usually at least three of us with our kids and it is just a great catch-up time. Not that we don't talk to each other every day, but it's just I don't know, just special. And dad normally cooks a big dinner and if you butter him up enough he will cook your favorite :) It's just a tradition that I don't think will ever end, and I hope it never does.
Just wanted to leave with this quote - I hope everyone is able to call their Father - Dad, as I am proudly been able to!
" Any man can be a father, but it takes a special person to be a dad" (Proverb)
Much love to all
Surgery
Quick note: dad is out of surgery and everything went well. He is home resting at the moment. I will post later with more news, but just wanted to let you know the surgery went fine.
Much love to all,
Much love to all,
Update on Uncle Wally
Dad has an appointment for Monday morning to have the fluid drained from his abdomen. The relief can't come soon enough! Still waiting to hear something about his legs. The doctor did say that it wasn't as bad as he thought, which I guess is good (???) but not sure about putting the stents in or if he needs them. I think we'd almost prefer the stents versus another medicine such as a blood thinner or something else to add to his daily regimine of meds! Something else that would have possible side effects or screw up another medicine! One step closer to them coming home?? Hopefully!! Hang in there mom and dad and Bill and Cookie!! We are all praying for your strength and for the doctors to have the wisdom to get you guys through these procedures!!! Love, Turtle
Thursday, February 5, 2009
1st Round Done
Whew, what a long day. Dad had his chemo this morning and the nurse that took care of him today Ruth was super nice, and you know dad he has that Timmerding charm and just flirted away. I think the nurses are going to love him. We saw dad's doctor today, Dr. Draper, he is very nice also, young which is good in that he will be more aggressive and willing to try new things. I asked him about the spots on his liver because they never did a biopsy and so how could he be certain that they were cancer. He said with pancreatic cancer and with the way the spots looked from when they did the biopsy on the pancreas that he was 99% sure that they were cancerous they normally are.
So chemo took about an hour, he is going to do 7 weeks of chemo in a row and then a week off and they will do more scans to see if the chemo is having any effect at all on the cancer, hopefully it is at least stablizing it which would be good in that it isn't growing. Of course this all depends on how dad will react to the treatments and how much his body can take. After chemo we had to go pre-register for his surgery tomorrow where he is getting the portalcath in and they wanted him to take an x-ray and an EKG to make sure his heart was fine since he just had the chemo and then after that we went and met the surgeon for tomorrow's surgery. Mom and I were saying dad went through more tests and had to see more doctors for what is called a "simple procedure" than when he had his biopsy done. It was an exhausting day!
He is in a lot of pain right now mainly because he hasn't been able to go to the bathroom. Any time you are on strong pain killers it leaves you unable to go regular. But the doctor gave him enough laxatives today to have him going non-stop. But of course because he is in so much pain he wanted the pills to work as soon as they went down. So hopefully when he gets some relief from that, he'll be fine. I imagine he won't feel any effects from the chemo for another day or two and then with the surgery tomorrow, he is one tired dad!
His spirits are still up and we are still trying to have him gain weight. Any protein drinks we give him he is always like they are too chalky, they taste too mediciny, but it's my turn to be the parent " You aren't leaving this table until this drink is done, do you hear me mister" :) (how many times did we hear that growing up)
Sorry just wanted to lighten the mood. I'll post tomorrow after the surgery to let everyone know how it went.
Much love to all,
So chemo took about an hour, he is going to do 7 weeks of chemo in a row and then a week off and they will do more scans to see if the chemo is having any effect at all on the cancer, hopefully it is at least stablizing it which would be good in that it isn't growing. Of course this all depends on how dad will react to the treatments and how much his body can take. After chemo we had to go pre-register for his surgery tomorrow where he is getting the portalcath in and they wanted him to take an x-ray and an EKG to make sure his heart was fine since he just had the chemo and then after that we went and met the surgeon for tomorrow's surgery. Mom and I were saying dad went through more tests and had to see more doctors for what is called a "simple procedure" than when he had his biopsy done. It was an exhausting day!
He is in a lot of pain right now mainly because he hasn't been able to go to the bathroom. Any time you are on strong pain killers it leaves you unable to go regular. But the doctor gave him enough laxatives today to have him going non-stop. But of course because he is in so much pain he wanted the pills to work as soon as they went down. So hopefully when he gets some relief from that, he'll be fine. I imagine he won't feel any effects from the chemo for another day or two and then with the surgery tomorrow, he is one tired dad!
His spirits are still up and we are still trying to have him gain weight. Any protein drinks we give him he is always like they are too chalky, they taste too mediciny, but it's my turn to be the parent " You aren't leaving this table until this drink is done, do you hear me mister" :) (how many times did we hear that growing up)
Sorry just wanted to lighten the mood. I'll post tomorrow after the surgery to let everyone know how it went.
Much love to all,
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tomorrow is the day
Tomorrow is the big day. As mom says, it's when Pacman is coming in to chomp it away. Besides chemo we have to meet with another doctor because dad is having surgery on Friday to get a portalcather in. It's a little tube they will put in his chest to draw blood and put the chemo in whenever need be instead of always finding a vein. We know some nurses just don't always seem to get it right (sorry you nurses out there :) ).... So just a little extra prayer tonight. I know we are ready to get this started and beat this thing. I'll update everyone tomorrow night.
I found a quote today by Jeff Foxworthy that I am sure some of us can relate to, I know our family can :)
"If you ever start feeling like you have the goofiest, craziest, most dysfunctional family in the world, all you have to do is go to a state fair. Because five minutes at the fair, you'll be going ' you know, we're alright. We are dang near royalty. " (Jeff Foxworthy)
Now we all know we have felt that, don't act like no one has done that type of judging of others!
Much love to all,
I found a quote today by Jeff Foxworthy that I am sure some of us can relate to, I know our family can :)
"If you ever start feeling like you have the goofiest, craziest, most dysfunctional family in the world, all you have to do is go to a state fair. Because five minutes at the fair, you'll be going ' you know, we're alright. We are dang near royalty. " (Jeff Foxworthy)
Now we all know we have felt that, don't act like no one has done that type of judging of others!
Much love to all,
Message from Mom
what a beautiful day! there is beautiful snow on the ground, the sun is shinging, bill,s having a good day and i'm off of work. It doesn't get any better than that.I want to thank everyone for their thoughts, prayers and everything else.It is great to have so much support.Tomorrow Bill is joined by captain Chemo in his battle (picture pac-man chomping at the "thing") see how many levels we win!! Bill 10 Cancer 0 !That old saying is true " if you force yourself to have a smile on your face, pretty soon you won't be pretending" I think I just made that up but it should be an old saying. Have a great day everyone and keep on smiling!!Cooki & Bill
Message from Tonya
Wow! So much truth to that! Thank you Michele and thank you Uncle Dave!!I know that growing up in our house, we didn't always "say" the words. Matter of fact, it wasn't until my mom and dad moved to Florida that I remembered having that empty feeling inside...and then all of those feelings of regret for not saying the words all of those years! That was my first wake up call! From that moment on, I was always telling them that I loved them! Unfortunately, it was now when I talked to them on the phone versus leaving their house. It just goes to prove that you don't know what you've got til it's gone! But thankfully, they had only moved to Florida, so it was my "wake up call" instead! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! :)A quick update on my dad....His medicine was approved by the insurance company! He should be getting it soon! They have to run another test on his legs, one called an MRA. It's like an MRI, but they put some dye in his arteries first. We are praying for some relief of the pain in his legs and in his abdomen. Hopefully, with some re-gained strength, they can make the trip up to Kentucky for a quick visit. I am trying to schedule a trip to Florida to see them as well....maybe in March?I'll keep you updated!! Thank you to everyone reading this blog for your thoughts and prayers!! Prayer is a powerful thing! We are grateful for everyday that we have here on earth!!!Love,Turtle
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Masses
Uncle Dave had sent me some times for Masses that he had set up at St. Timothy's Church in Union Ky. They are February 18 at 8:00pm for dad and February 21 at 7:00am for Uncle Wally if anyone would like to attend.
He also sent me a wonderful excerpt from a book called The Four Things That Matter the Most by Ira Byock. It basically talks about four things you need to say for improving your relationships and for your life. Because no one knows when their time is up, even if the doctors tell you, they could be wrong (at least we hope they are), because they are only human too. The four things you need to say are : Please forgive me. I forgive you. Thank you. I love you.
We all assume that we know our parents love us, our family, brothers/sisters, friends but how many times do you say it. Do you tell them everyday when you are on the phone with the person or do you only tell them when there is a crisis going on. I know for me and for my siblings that I tell both mom and dad every time I leave the house when I am over. They get a kiss and hug and I love you! I even make my kids do it, and so does everyone else.
So even if you think that person or people in your life know that you love them, go ahead and say it anyway - it's not going to hurt, it will only improve your life and if you were to die in the night then at least the people here who are left knew how you felt and weren't left wondering. (BUT I don't want anyone to die) - Just saying......
Sorry for the rambling post and that it is so late.
Much love to all,
He also sent me a wonderful excerpt from a book called The Four Things That Matter the Most by Ira Byock. It basically talks about four things you need to say for improving your relationships and for your life. Because no one knows when their time is up, even if the doctors tell you, they could be wrong (at least we hope they are), because they are only human too. The four things you need to say are : Please forgive me. I forgive you. Thank you. I love you.
We all assume that we know our parents love us, our family, brothers/sisters, friends but how many times do you say it. Do you tell them everyday when you are on the phone with the person or do you only tell them when there is a crisis going on. I know for me and for my siblings that I tell both mom and dad every time I leave the house when I am over. They get a kiss and hug and I love you! I even make my kids do it, and so does everyone else.
So even if you think that person or people in your life know that you love them, go ahead and say it anyway - it's not going to hurt, it will only improve your life and if you were to die in the night then at least the people here who are left knew how you felt and weren't left wondering. (BUT I don't want anyone to die) - Just saying......
Sorry for the rambling post and that it is so late.
Much love to all,
Monday, February 2, 2009
Truly Blessed
My siblings and I went to mass tonight with mom and the whole time in church I was thinking how truly blessed our family really is. We as far as the Timmerding clan have just dealt with weddings and baby showers and gatherings but never really had to deal with the possibility of well what we are dealing with ( sorry I can't say it ). But seeing three of the brothers/sisters there and cousins and friends made me realize how truly blessed our family is and that we will always be there for each other no matter what.
I talked to Tonya briefly today and they are waiting on results for some tests for Uncle Wally tomorrow to see if they can put stints in his leg to help with the pain/pressure. She said the boys (Gary and Brian) made it home safe and that Uncle Wally was in good spirits and was ready to go golfing. I think we are all ready to go golfing, just to be in the warmth and not in the snow.
I'll keep you updated.
Much love,
I talked to Tonya briefly today and they are waiting on results for some tests for Uncle Wally tomorrow to see if they can put stints in his leg to help with the pain/pressure. She said the boys (Gary and Brian) made it home safe and that Uncle Wally was in good spirits and was ready to go golfing. I think we are all ready to go golfing, just to be in the warmth and not in the snow.
I'll keep you updated.
Much love,
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Devotion
I have a devotion book that was given to me by a friend at the time a couple of years ago and today's devotion kind of just hit home. If you don't mind I'd like to list the paragraph:
"My child, I have a message for you today. Let me whisper it in your ear so any storm clouds that may arise will shine with glory, and the rough places you may have to walk will be made smooth. It is only four words, but let them sink into your inner being, and use them as a pillow to rest your worry head. "This is my doing. "
(1 Kings 12:24)
It just made me realize that our lives aren't our lives. We aren't in control of what is going to happen to us or what has happened. It is all up to God and what he sees fit. We are born with the plan already in his mind and as much as we fight it we can't change it. I know this is hard for us kids and we haven't even known dad his whole life, sure we hear the stories but for the brothers/sisters and family and friends who have known him longer than us kids have, we know it is hard for you too and unbearable at times. But just believe and have faith that God knows what he is doing and that everything in our life happens for a reason and as someone told me this past week we are just all on a journey.
It stinks that the Steelers one, because well yuck! Dad was tired when we were up there and took a little siesta, honestly I think it was just to get away from all of the noise :) (Just kidding dad!) But he had some visitors today which he enjoys. There is a mass on Monday nights at Holy Cross at 7:00 that the aunts/uncles are trying to get people to go to, not necessarily every week but it is a peace prayer mass so whoever would like to attend are more than welcome.
On a side note, I have been trying to get a hold of Tonya with no luck, but I heard from others that Uncle Wally is waiting until spring to come up. With it being cold and snowy up here, he said he moves around better down there in the sunshine and where it is 70. If he were up here he would just sit in a house all day and not take walks. So that is understandable. I will keep you updated as I hear more.
On a personal note: I just want to put a disclaimer in that I am not a perfect writer and half the time I am just rambling, but I am just speaking from the heart and trying to be honest and if for some reason at all I offend someone, I am sorry, it is not my intention at all. I am just "dealing".
Much love to all,
"My child, I have a message for you today. Let me whisper it in your ear so any storm clouds that may arise will shine with glory, and the rough places you may have to walk will be made smooth. It is only four words, but let them sink into your inner being, and use them as a pillow to rest your worry head. "This is my doing. "
(1 Kings 12:24)
It just made me realize that our lives aren't our lives. We aren't in control of what is going to happen to us or what has happened. It is all up to God and what he sees fit. We are born with the plan already in his mind and as much as we fight it we can't change it. I know this is hard for us kids and we haven't even known dad his whole life, sure we hear the stories but for the brothers/sisters and family and friends who have known him longer than us kids have, we know it is hard for you too and unbearable at times. But just believe and have faith that God knows what he is doing and that everything in our life happens for a reason and as someone told me this past week we are just all on a journey.
It stinks that the Steelers one, because well yuck! Dad was tired when we were up there and took a little siesta, honestly I think it was just to get away from all of the noise :) (Just kidding dad!) But he had some visitors today which he enjoys. There is a mass on Monday nights at Holy Cross at 7:00 that the aunts/uncles are trying to get people to go to, not necessarily every week but it is a peace prayer mass so whoever would like to attend are more than welcome.
On a side note, I have been trying to get a hold of Tonya with no luck, but I heard from others that Uncle Wally is waiting until spring to come up. With it being cold and snowy up here, he said he moves around better down there in the sunshine and where it is 70. If he were up here he would just sit in a house all day and not take walks. So that is understandable. I will keep you updated as I hear more.
On a personal note: I just want to put a disclaimer in that I am not a perfect writer and half the time I am just rambling, but I am just speaking from the heart and trying to be honest and if for some reason at all I offend someone, I am sorry, it is not my intention at all. I am just "dealing".
Much love to all,
Phone Number
Just a brief FYI: their phone number is still active. They are changing their phone over to Insight and I guess Cincinnati Bell went ahead and turned their phone off on Friday. But their regular number should be back up and running tomorrow afternoon.
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