Realization

I came to the realization tonight that no one knows when "the end" will be here for any of us. It is all in God's hands. And even though one may be healthy and doing good the one day, the very next day things can change quickly. So even though I love dad's hospice nurse, I think she is like us and it is all just a guessing game and things could change instantly.

He did for the most part have a good day, he had many visitors. Uncle John and Aunt Sandy came for a bit which was good because mom had to run an errand. Then Uncle Tom came by and dad was excited to show Tom his tomatoe plants so he had a nice visit there and then Tom next door neighbor came over and dad was calling him a dumb ass. And Tom and mom agreed he may be being mean but it is a lot better than staring into space. And Aunt Bernie and Lisa came over, which was a great surprise. I didn't even know she was in town yet. But dad really enjoyed his visitors but by the time everyone had left, he was exhausted and went back to his "fog".

He would join in the conversation here and there but I know he was tired so he would zone out. He had a little more control on his holding things today, but a bit more trouble walking. It's no wonder his feet are so swollen, I told him he looked like a oompa loompa from Willy Wonka, he laughed.

So again, we enjoy our evening together again. This makes up for all the family vacations we have never taken together. I volunteered to cook tomorrow - I am thinking White Castles - it's quick and easy and I'll get them all sick :).....

Hospice is coming in tomorrow to change his bandages, which is good because mom had some questions for them. But like I said earlier, it is all a guessing game for everyone, no one is God but God himself, and it is his timeline - so we continue to be blessed with him here with us each new day.

Much love to all,