I often wonder

what dad was thinking his last days on earth. For some reason I have been thinking about that a lot lately, about dad and all others who leave this earth and make the journey home. I know dad was seeing a peaceful place with the most magnificent colors and smells and joy because that is what he told me. But I also wonder if he saw as they say "his life flash before him". Do you see everything in your life, your whole past, do you see the regrets, the happiness, the lost, the pain, the joys, the unending love you have for a person - or do you just see what is ahead of you and know that you are going to a much better place.

Do you see and feel the pain of letting a friendship go because of anger and hurt, do you see what could have been, do you see your family and the laughter and joy that they brought you, the silliness of sweating over small stuff, the wasted time of not living for the moment. All the arguments you have in life, do they come swooping back and you think how silly was that - do you think of how you could have done things differently, less selfishly, I should have gone to church more, read the Bible more, be involved more, do you see the future and the happiness or sadness that your loved ones you leave behind are going to go through.

What do you see or think or feel? Most of the time it is going to go quickly or you are so drugged up one can not tell you what they are feeling or seeing - but I often wonder....

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I know deep thoughts! Every once in a while I just get into the unknown and the deep thought of it - it is crazy :)..... I can not believe it is Sunday night already. I didn't make it to mom's today - took the boys to Kings Island and I am worn out. I over did it on my knee. Still didn't go to a doctor yet, just wearing a brace and taking it easy. I can walk on it and move it, it just pops or turns the wrong way once in a while - that isn't a bad thing is it :) LOL..... Beautiful day yesterday - I finally took some bushes out in our front yard landscaping that I have hated since we moved here. They were just fillers but I would rather have a hole there and nothing there but dirt than to look at those bushes - Now to find something to put there - it is just tricky because it is a hillside and besides the fact that we need a rock wall built there - but it isn't on top of the list.

But we were outside all day yesterday - and we were wiped by 7:00. Brayden wanted to have a movie night so we watched Toy Story 2 - and Logan sat still - which is amazing in itself. Brayden wants to be ready for when Toy Story 3 comes out this summer. I will say Pixar are some of my favorite movies - they do such a great job and the movies are clean and fun.

I hope everyone stays dry this week - it is suppose to rain some more and be a bit cooler. But every day from God is a gift and take it and enjoy each and every moment of it.

Miss and love you dad!

Much love to all