Sleepless Night

oh goodness, it was a sleepless night. I did good, I fell asleep and then midnight right on the nose I woke up. Kind of ironic. Dad had his last rites last night after midnight. I just couldn't get back to sleep. All of that night came rushing back into me, my last real conversation with dad, saying our goodbyes - what an overcoming feeling to have it all rush - I have never forgotten this weekend - these days coming up, they are etched in my heart forever.

I think I had finally been able to see dad for dad, and not the dad that was at the end. By now, it is all back..... I have been up reading, crying, sitting and praying, crying, and I heard this song first thing this morning and it made me cry some more. What a heart wrenching song. If there is one thing that is important in this life it is to make sure you tell the ones you love that you love them, that you need them, that you appreciate them, hold them, hug them, kiss them and don't be afraid to show your feelings for them. Life is way too short, so why wait, do it while you can.

I hope everyone has a great July 4th - it is going to be a busy weekend and yes we will all be together alot these next 7 days - annoying I know, but it's what we do. It is what dad loved us to do. This was his favorite holiday. Light off some extra loud fireworks for him, do a silly dance with a chinese latern,  drink a beer for him and remember all of the good times he has brought to our lives. He along with Uncle Wally and all of the other loves ones we have lost will be looking down on us with smiles knowing that we are paying forward their wonderful lives, that through us, they all continue to live on.

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Here are the words to the song:

Yes I understand that every life must end, aw huh...
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw huh...
I'm a lucky man to count on both hands
The ones I love...


Some folks just have one
Others they got none, aw huh...
Stay with me
Let's just breathe


Practiced are my sins
Never gonna let me win, aw huh...
Under everything, just another human being, aw huh...
Yea, I don't wanna hurt, there's so much in this world
To make me bleed


Stay with me
You're all I see
Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
As I come clean


I wonder everyday
As I look upon your face, aw huh...
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take, aw huh...
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave


Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
As I come clean


Nothing you would take
Everything you gave
Hold me 'till I die
Meet you on the other side

Miss and love you dad so much!

Many blessings and love to all,