Another night

of no sleep, not sure why. My mind is racing with so many things, dad being on top of the list. I guess this week is bringing back the way I saw him last and not the man he use to be. It took me so long to get that image out of my head or at least subsided but it has resurfaced.

Have you ever had those days or thoughts of where your life is taking you, what path are you suppose to be on, what does the future hold. I would love to see just a glimpse and where I am suppose to be at. This week I told some friends that I wanted to sell everything and move to Haiti or some torn country and be a missionary. I think I was just tired of materiastic items being the cause of fights, you know kids wanting stuff they can't have, or other things. I really am praying about going on a mission trip. I just feel that there is so much more to life, so much I can do showing God's love and dad's love. Ever since Haiti was hit with the earthquake my heart has been tugging there. I would love, love to adopt a child from Haiti. They have been through so much in life, more than any of us could ever imagine and even though there are days I feel like I don't have much, to them it would be a dream come true.

I continue to pray to God every day to show me where am I suppose to be, what path am I suppose to be on - lead me to that path, help me and be with me as the journey of life continues on.....


1For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jer 29:11


Miss and love you dad,

Much love to all,