Mommy's Guilt

oh mommy's guilt - gotta hate it. As much as I want to work or should I say need to work, I hate it on some days. Friday was Brayden's Christmas party at school and I couldn't go. By the time I got there and came back to work it would of been a three hour lunch and it was too long to be gone. But gone from what - it's not like I am saving lives or anything. He of course was fine except making the comment that all of the other mommies were there :( And now he is on Christmas break and I should be the one there taking care of them, making cookies, doing crafts, dancing to Xmas music, but I am not a millionaire and I am unable to find that perfect job to work from home, to be flexible and take time to be with my kids.

I know every mother goes through it - it just stinks - let's all try to find that perfect job or win the lottery so we don't have to deal with the guilt :)....Time on some days seems so long and like the day will never end, other days it is so short and before you know it your baby is turning two and your oldest is acting like he is thirteen.

Sometimes people have the time for you and other times they don't, but when you think about it shouldn't your time be spent with the ones that you love, with talking to people that mean the most to you, with being with your kids, with taking the time to tell those people in your life that you love them, and not worry so much about clients, or getting the bid out, or returning calls - sometimes, time and the most important things in our lives just escape us.

Just feel completely guilty today - here is wishing for that perfect job or a winning lottery ticket so I can have the time with my kids :).......

Miss and love you dad,

Much love to all!