Month

wow! can you believe it's been a month already since dad passed away. i can't believe it. i still have a hard time knowing he is really gone. I know we all get busy in our lives and our own families but there is a minute of the day that doesn't go by that I don't think of him.

I actually cried today on the way to work a little in that where I work is like 10minutes from the VA hospital and it just reminds me every day the trips he and mom and I would take up there - the good trips and the bad trips - I am so grateful that I had that time with him and the talks we had during that time. oh I miss him so much every day -I talk to him everyday and I have a picture of him and I together on my dresser that I kiss goodnight and kiss good morning every day - I know that may sound corny but it helps me - guess I am kind of strange. But when I do that I can feel him hugging me back telling me he loves me and telling me to have a good day.

I am still trying to find that perfect place to go - I just wanna go somewhere for a night or two and be in solitude - no phones, no tv, no kids, not even a husband - just me - it has been a long year with three deaths and just a lot of stress - I don't know if that is wrong and selfish of me for wanting to do that or if it's okay - I feel guilty either way I suppose.

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We get a newsletter from Knights of Columbus the organization that dad and all of the boys belong to. This month there was a nice article in it about dad and it sums up to the men down there and to us what type of man he was.

On Tuesday July 7, 2009 Bill Timmerding joined the Kehoe council up above. As long as Bill was a member of Father Kehoe Council, he was very active. From dealing Poker and Black Jack at the Festivals and Night at the Races to cooking in the council kitchen he was always there. He was the ultimate Frying Knight because he was always frying at the fry's and he single-handily convinced the Knights that we needed to upgrade our Fried Fish. He started the Beer Batter on our Fish, Mushrooms, Onion Rings and Shrimp. Bill started making the macaroni homemade which increased the quantity enabling us to serve a larger portion. Our council lost not only a great Knight, but more importantly, we all lost a very good and dedicated friend. He is truly missed.

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On a side note all five of us kids would trace down there at least one Friday during Lent to have dad's meal and let me tell you there wasn't one healthy thing about eating all that fried stuff: the fried fish, mushrooms, onion rings - BUT it tasted so good that we didn't care, of course until we got home and you could just feel all of that grease oh just sitting there in your stomach. But I'll tell you - he did make the best fish around and that isn't a bias statement from his daughter :)

I love and miss you dad!

Much love to all,