Last night we had a baby shower for my sister-in-law who is due in about a month - this will make #9 for the grandkids. But we were surrounded by family and dad was there and everyone is concerned and worried but I could tell how myself, my two sisters and my mom were dodging the topic of dad. Aunts and cousins would come up and ask about him and we would say with a smile on our face, he is fine, just waiting for the results but he is going to be fine. Knowing the whole time I was saying that, I could hear in my head what the doctor had said, 70%-80% it is cancer! But I continued with a smile to say he is fine, just waiting.
I think it helped us in a way to have the shower and just for one night forget about what may happen this week, actually in a day or two. Our lives could change forever. I started reading the Bible again, just for answers and just because I need him on my side and I need him to help me through life right now, especially now but I came across a passage in Matthew:
Matthew 11: 28-30
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary, and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humbld gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light. "
Everything we do is in God's hand - and all I can do is hand it over to him for it is will that will be done, whether we like it or not. So I continue to wait.... wait for answers..... wait for dad's pain to go away..... wait for God's will to be done.
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