Yesterday as we all know was a horrible day for us. The five of us kids had a meeting last night and it wasn't to plan anything it was just for the five of us to sit down and talk and cry and say how unfair all of this is. And it was easier for me to have us all together than to make five phone calls since I was the one at the doctor with them. So we cried and drank and laughed and cried some more and laughed and even though this sucks and we all know how unfair it is, we still know and believe that there is a reason for everything. We may not know what that is at the moment, but there is a reason.
Like dad said yesterday " God puts on this earth and he is the one who decides how much time he wants us here and I suppose my time is up." I admire dad and for how he is handling this, he is so strong and maybe it is a front for us and maybe he breaks down when it is just him and mom, but whatever the case the way he is handling it with us and with everyone is just remarkable. I so truly admire him.
There are going to be easy days and hard days. Today Amy and I have been at mom and dad's since 12:30 to just spend the day and go sled riding and he is probably sick of us. I want to be able to give him space but I also want to be selfish and spend as much time with him as possible without being annoying. But today is a good day. He is on his medicine and he is going to try to have a beer he says. He had a drink last night and he said it didn't taste good. He said tonight he will make it taste good!
You know we are blessed with such a wonderful family and with friends and the outpour of phone calls and offers is truly amazing and I just want to take the time to say THANK YOU to everyone and I know we will all get through it, together.
So we each deal in our own way, whether its tears or laughter or being angry or having a drink or two or three or four (:)) or throwing things or just hiding in a closet and crying uncontrollably for a half hour, whatever the case and however one may do with it, it is good to deal with it and to be able to accept it and say okay it is what it is, lets make the most of it and not waste anytime!....
Michele and Family- Uncle Tom bought two books a friend of ours suggested and took them to your Dad. He also got him a gardening book. They had a good visit and Bill said he was not in any pain. We are planning on attending mass at Holy Cross on Monday nights at 7 PM. It only last 1/2 hour. We thought you might want to know about that. Please know that you are all in our prayers. Love, Uncle Tom and Aunt Diana xoxox
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