Beautiful Weekend

what a beautiful weekend it was, weather wise. i know the Bengals are on now, but that is the benefit of DVR. I wanted to post something before I got too busy and too hectic. Been kind of crazy couple of days but when aren't they. Mom had her annual Fall Party last night - we celebrated all of the September/October birthdays and just ate and drank some beverages as we always do. Kind of quiet this year! But I didn't make it over there tonight for Sunday dinner - WHAT? I know crazy huh....

But we were all together yesterday and my bathrooms weren't going to clean themselves today - although if anyone can figure that out let me know, they are my least favorite room of the house to clean. Jen and Bill were not there because Case was home last week on fall break, not that anyone saw much of him, busy seeing his friends and girlfriends. But that took Casey back to Notre Dame because they were going to go to the game.

I took the boys to a pumpkin patch today - McGlasson Farm down on Route 8 - it was the type I liked - not so commercialized and not so crowded and not charging for parking or to even walk on the property. This was a farm that this was the way they were making their living - so I was happy to get some pumpkins and apples.

This week for some reason I had a selfish week - I know we have all had them, why me, why can't I have more, why am I the one still struggling, when am I going to catch a break, even though I am very blessed with having a healthy family and my own health, a job, and a roof over my head - i was just in an awful place in wanting to feel the security that i don't now. I really, REALLY hate myself for even having this feelings and wanting - one is not suppose to want - we are blessed in our own ways - and sometimes you just forget that.

It just made me feel even more down and depressed for being such a selfish person like that, because I am really not that way - I think I am just looking for a security that I don't have.

I posted some new pictures down in the slide show Coney Island. Some are from the night I watched Sean's two kids: Lydia and Wil. And Wil, is a spitting image of Sean (God help us :) )....And the other ones are from the pumpkin farm today.

I hope everyone has gotten the chance to get outside today - it is beautiful weather and we do not come by those very often anymore.

Just wanted also to give a shout out to Orry (Kirsten's son): if I am not mistaken today is his birthday so HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ORRY!!!!!!

miss you dad........

Much love to all,